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Lizbeth:
I just realized that during this past year (since I have turned 50), I have regained my voice.  Wonder if it is my age or if it just coincides with my learning about N’s and the damage they and other mentally disordered people have done to me throughout my life.  Therapy 3 years ago after the death of my schizophrenic mother started my progress towards regaining my voice, but the real change came after I started to research the behavior of my N son, in just the past 6 months or so.  The proverbial light-bulb went off and I’ve never looked back.  Now I have to learn to shut up, a bit, I think.  I haven’t learned to temper my voice yet when I find I’m being hurt or taken advantage of.  I’ll have to work on that now too. :wink:

Lizbeth

Lizbeth:
Forgot to add that it will be one year to the date on August 8, 2004, that I was able to conquer my 30+ years of bulemia.   Something happened to me this past year since I turned 50, for sure.

Nikole:
First off, CONGRATUALTIONS, LIZBETH!!!  :D (Oh, and happy belated birthday too!) Take no prisoners! Shout and scream, and emanate your inner voice! Even if it’s just saying hello to someone…  :)  Don’t be silly…. There is no need to shut your lid at all, especially when you are being taken advantage of. I just think that you are enthralled by your newfound harmonious, powerful, beautiful voice, that the whole world can hear...bask in your glory...it’s something you should be doing anyway! With time, you will learn to control it. Remember you control your voice, it doesn’t control you.  :wink:

Best of luck, Lizbeth!

- Nikole

Lizbeth:
That is great advice and encouragement, Nickole, thanks so much!  Healing seems to creep up on you and all of a sudden you realize you are much better.  I have even lost 35 lbs since the same day I ended my bulemia last august, on the Atkins diet (hubby has lost 47).  

I have always been the overly conscientious one in the family, taking care of everyone and worrying about everyone's feelings.  I don't know how they are going to like me with my new voice, but I guess, if they love me, they will have to get used to it!

Have a great weekend, it's going to be beautiful here!

Lizbeth

rosencrantz:
Hi Lizbeth - Yes, I think there's something about being 50 that means a new coming of age for us women.  Our bodies are going into a new phase, so it stands to reason that there's a new emotional/psychological persepctive on life, too.

Congratulations on conquering bulimia!!!  That can't have been easy.  Looking forward to celebrating with you in August!!!
R

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