I get that knot as well re stress. It is darned painful and I press on it to try to dissolve it, but no go.
I was in a very depressed state one morning in 1993. I had to call the Music Studio and I just burst out crying. (Barry, there, is a very kind 'buddy' of mine, being I paid him $30,000.00)
After that I couldn't stop. I had 5 places to go and do things, in and out of the car with the wheelchair, then back home with a trunkfuk of whatever, and who is there, after the estrangement with my daughter, but THIS sister. I began yelling and screaming and that was the point I 'cracked' I wouldn't talk to her but did yell at her about keeping my daughter away from me in that 2 month period and now we are estranged, accused her of breaking our bond--not bringing her to me often enouhg. Oh there was hell to pay that day.
Next day I had a Dr. Appointment and told him I was Depressed then began to cry all over again, and he said "Yep! You're depressed!" and gave me handouts of Zoloft.
I popped one as soon as I got outside and I felt better and the next day at the music studio I was as high as a kite!
This is a sister who will not allow something like that stay between us, so she came back and we talked about it. No matter what, I was paying her, she was telling me my daughter was crying for me, I was asking her to bring her, and she did only once in over 2 months.
No one can change that with an apology. My daughter was 'abandoned' by me at age 5.
So that sister makes me itch! No more talk about it, but it's in my mind, AND I know it is in hers
xx
Izzy