Mom's Email

[Hopalong]

Oh MS.
I'm in the same spiral.
Mom's not quite as demented as Mamaw yet, but well on her way. Great confusion at times.
I have a caregiver/sitter, uncertified but reliable (hell, saintly) 4 hours a day. Then she's alone, hopefully sleeping, for about 4 hours until I get home. She wears a LifeAlert type of emergency pendant, and walks with a walker. But she often decides she's fine with just her cane in the house, and I know one day that's why she'll fall.

I just can't arrange or pay for around the clock care. And if I went as far as you're willing to (e.g., sleeping beside her), I would go: a) mad, and b) straight downhill physically and wind up unable to do my job, and I can't risk that.

It's such a tightrope of cobbled-together solutions. It felt just the same to me when my D was little and I had to find child care.

Right now she's teetering on the edge of poor hygeine and I can't do it for her because of my back.

All to say, I truly feel for you and I am awed by your optimism that you can find solutions. I am glad you have a respite care backup plan.

love and steadiness,
Hops

[Ami]

Dear MS,
  I feel like something beautiful is going to come out of this( with your grandmother). When you wrote a while back, I was hoping that you would take her home with you.
  I can't explain my "unusual" feeling,but I feel it so I thought I would share it.
  You are a precious granddaughter.
   I am sorry for your F's situation. You are handling things exponentially better than I would( or most people),my Friend. I am inspired by your devotion and courage
   ((((((((((((((((((((((MS))))))))))))))))))))))                             Love   Ami

[Certain Hope]

Dear Mountainspring,

All that you are organizing and doing just boggles my mind.
You are doing everything that I can imagine is possible, you know? It hurts my heart to hear you say that you hope you can do it right...
because it's your heart attitude that makes all the difference, much more than the stuff you can do.
More big hugs to you and lots of prayer that God will continue to strengthen and encourage you and protect Mammaw and the rest of the family from harm.

With love,
Hope