a few weeks ago I said i wanted to be more resilient, I wasn't quite sure what I meant but I equated it to my core strength at the gym!
Last night I got home and watched a comedy programme and wrote in my journal and ate some yoghurt with Kashi Lean Crunchy and I felt just so normal- not madly happy, not sad, just like a person who had a busy day and was now taking time out at the end to wind down before bed.
I though about my week and its challenges- again, and how they aren't throwing me off-balance.
So I guess I am finding this resilience and what it means to me so far is
having the resources to cope even with the unexpected and the difficult;
taking care of myself even when I'm not entirely motivated to;
doing what is meaningful to me with my life, regardless of social or other external pressures to conform to something else;
engaging in relationships with people who share some of my values and interests;
not being afraid to care;
disengaging with relationships I don't have to* do which are too demanding.So I am getting to articulate who i am and what I want and what my resources and limitations are.
This week threatened to undermine my developing confidence- y'all haven't heard me mention going back to college for a few days?!
But I think it will just show me that sometimes life
is trying and I can cope even when it is.
~W
* pre-teen son is a 'have to do' relationship she reminds herself....
