Acceptance

[steve]

I always knew that the road would end here.

The only problem is, that I was never on the road to begin with. No, like a fool in a madhouse, I was on the road of fantasy. As long as I travelled down that road, I could never reach my desired goal. So what exactly was that road:

It was a fantasy of understanding from another individual.
It was a fantasy of justice and reparations, again from that individual.
It was a fantasy of waking up and realizing it was all a dream.

Ah, but there it is, the reality of the situation. It was just a dream, a demented dream that I conjured up in my head. The entire dream was MY making. So, just as easily as I can make it, I can break it, crush it, make it my own. It is gone! It no longer means anything to me, it has no value.

Does that solve my problems. NO!

I must be responsible for my own course in life and this takes courage. It takes courage to recognize that indeed we do walk through this world in darkness, but we still walk. How we proceed is in our hands. We must use our will and get what we want instead of hoping to get it from our dreams. Get out and seek, only then will you find. You only get one shot, so start using it. And in the process never again subjugate yourself to a fantasy. If they do not serve you, then vanquish them. You will know when you find yourself, it is that point where the world seems just right. 

First forget your dreams, now start to live the dream.

Steve

[Hopalong]

First forget your dreams, now start to live the dream.

Thank you, Steve!

Hops

[Ami]

Dear Steve,
  Where have you been? I have missed you. On several occassions,I thought,'I want to share this with Steve."
   Well, here you are.
   I need to study your post and I will get back.                      Love Ami

[chosenvic]

Very well put steve.

[Ami]

Dear Steve,
 I came back to your thread when my mind was clearer.
 I want to write about how I interpreted your thread.
 You realize that you have been living in a fantasy  world. You were perceiving  life from a set of glasses that were not showing you reality. Maybe,it was distortions  that you were taught  in your FOO or by "society". However,you just realized that you were playing cards with a "trick" deck. You seem kind of "shocked" or taken aback.
  You  realized that you were seeing life as you had been taught or you "took on" rather than as it really is.
  I am at the very same point. I see that I took on my M's "world view"---  a freakin' mess.My thinking is the type that will get you in to trouble emotionally and physically  and it has.I understand where you are, I think..
  I want to address what you said about the "world seeming right".What hit me was  s/thing from Tai Chi. I remember they described the ultimate goal was to move in the freedom and "rightness" like  an animal. I remember looking at my Standard Poodle as she ran outside. She was "poetry in motion". She was exquisite in her movement and balance and just being  exactly' right" in the moment.  I thought that this was what they meant about getting in to that "right space" .
  My larger point is that we can "feel" when we are "right" in this world. Our mind and emotions feel "right" inside us. We feel whole. We can see ourselves and life, as it IS. We can see and feel without distortions . We feel that peace  and "rightness" inside.
   I think that I know what you mean and I have been there.I am striving to inhabit that space ,too. For us,I think that we get there by  facing ourselves and our life without distortions. I think that it is owning ourself and our own power-fully.I think that it is being centered in ourselves.
  This is what I think that you are saying.  Compost what does not fit.Don't be a stranger .              Love    Ami