Knowing that I don't matter

[betr4]

For me sharing the pain gets it out and I don't have to keep recycling it.
But I have to share with the "right" people.  I always shared with the "wrong" people and they loved my faults.  So I stayed broke in that cycle.
I had more energy and knowledge in pain and suffering.  I knew how to do it.  I am seeing that I have to practice changing my attitude, myself and my perspective.  And people, places and things to support those.
I know sharing here is healthy and life-supporting.
Thank you for sharing and being real.
BR

[Hopalong]

Poppy hon,

Good for you for getting all those toxic beliefs laid out in front of you, like a display on a big table, so you can look at each one, pick it up, put it on the floor, and grind it under your heel.

hugs
Hops

PS--When you're done, you're going to find a shining expanse of a beautiful welcome table, dear.

[betr4]

Thank you for all the affirmations.  I need lots of positive reminders.
I am building those muscles lately.
BR

[Poppy Seed]

RM:  YOU are awesome.  This is exactly what I am trying to do on my own.  But it sure helps to see how false these thoughts are through the eyes of someone who is objective.  I get all wrapped up in blaming myself and can't always see where it is ok to affirm myself or rebuke myself.  So I am going to borrow yours and meld them in with my own.

Hugs to you for taking the time with me.  It means a lot.  Especially now at this point in my journey.

Hops,

It does feel good to get it all out.  Kind of feels like a purging....and all of you feel like guards not letting me put it back into my head.  So, for the last few days since I listed them, I have felt somewhat free. I am trying to visualize a bubble around my thinker that keeps the toxic thoughts out!!!  I think I am continually amazed at how far reaching the shame goes in my thinking. 

I just watched Spiderman III.  Not my first choice, but with boys what can you do????? But that black tarlike venom stuff that gets on Spiderman and changes him and magnifies his negative emotions.  Made me feel like that is what shame does.  And it is just as hard to get away from.  At least for today, I can separate my thoughts from who I am.  I don't have to identify with them just because I think them.  That feels like an important accomplishment.....an important step.  I feel more powerful today.

Can't wait for the beautiful welcome table.......the freedom, the strength, the walking with my head high!  I am on my way.

Pops

[reallyME]

YAY Poppy!

Nothing makes me happier than knowing my advice might have helped someone.  I give God all glory for giving me an amazing ability of teaching and discerning.  All PRAISE to His name.

Blessya and always HOPE, Pop

~Laura

[Hopalong]

At least for today, I can separate my thoughts from who I am.  I don't have to identify with them just because I think them.  That feels like an important accomplishment.....an important step.

Poppy, it's HUGE!

Kudos!

hugs
Hops

[seasons]

((Poppy))

You have so much love and support surrounding you. RM reply was also wonderful, as it is the truth.

Hugs seasons