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Discounted Girl:
Wow -- logging on here seems like visiting a town where I once lived. R is gone, Jacmac, Phoenix too it seems. Where's Echo? Portia, Seeker and CG, glad to see you have not moved. I had to peek in here to see if the evil guest(s) had been vanquished, it appears so.

The NQueenMother called me -- can you believe it? She picked up the phone and actually called me after 3 years. It was a 6 min conversation about nothing, including the weather -- our communication was totally superficial, without even a warm tone of affectionate acquaintanceship. I felt/feel nothing -- that proved it, it is over. I feel no different having heard her voice -- nothing has changed. I am really convinced now that her final tirade on the day of my father's funeral washed the black sludge out of me. I am an orphan -- I have been an orphan all my life, but I didn't know it. The little girl with pigtails and teardrops has finally got it straight.

Well, it sure is nice to read the snappy posts here. If there is one redeeming quality derived from being an ACON (other than Portia's unstrained mercy) it might be a witty personality. The N's that I have known do not possess such traits. Their pompous air renders them unarmed opponents in a battle of wits.

Portia:
:D Hiya Discounted Girl, good to hear you again! I bet it is strange, I like the idea of a town where you lived. You asked where Echo went? I guess that was Acappella? She took work caring for “at risk” children and we haven’t heard from her since (if you’re still reading Acappella, hello and I hope you are okay). Yep, all the others went and it’s quietened down a lot in terms of no (current) intrusions from unhelpful Guests or Sam V supporters. Thank goodness! Talking of old-timers… Bunny is still here and as insightful as ever; Rob has been back occasionally and I think his parents are moving away; Nic has a new life and is still looking in (he sounds good); Rojo was back again a while ago and Jaded is here at the moment. Anyone else?...

Hey, a 6 minute conversation every three years, that’s 2 minutes per year, does she send you a Christmas/birthday card? Did you know it was her on the phone or were you totally surprised? Wow. I wonder what made her call. Your words are an inspiration though, about your reaction, or perhaps lack of reaction. Emotional orphans I know. You used to be sooooo angry DG (in an amusing way too,  :D some of your old posts were great), has that subsided? This nothing you felt/feel, I hope it’s a big positive nothing, a big nothing to give to her with everything kept for yourself and those you love. That’s a big positive 0 (like a complete circle of hugs).

No true sense of humour those Ns, although that phone call must have seemed like a joke to you, just not a funny one. Hey, I can get angry on your behalf thinking about it!  :o How can she just phone you like that?! Ha ha….that’s a huge piece of learning isn’t it, not fighting everyone else’s battles?  :roll: *Sigh* That ‘unstrained mercy’ is in short supply for some Ns….but they still want all the blood with their pounds of flesh!

Discounted Girl – from ACON to ICON in my eyes.  :D Lots of hugs P

Anonymous:
Hey there, DG!

Thanks for checking in...I've missed some of the folks from earlier days too.  I'm still here waving my pom-poms!  :D  I think it helps me keep perspective and distance from the funhouse.  Someone recently wrote about seeing Ns everywhere now and I agree.  It's an epidemic!

I join Portia in asking you about your mom's call.  Perhaps it was just a confirmation from the universe that your truth is valid after all, just in case you were wondering.  :?   It does sound as though you have moved further down the road from the anger Nness spreads around.  In the past I would have analyzed an event like this phone call to death, but it happened, it's over, that's that.  Good for you!  

Hope you'll stick around.  The board has increased its safeness quite a bit since the really weird invasions of N personas.  Take care, Seeker

sonia:
The board has increased its safeness quite a bit since the really weird invasions of N personas. Take care, Seeker

Hi all,

What's the deal with the Ns on the board. I'm new and have found this a nice place so far? Can you state any more about this situation.

sonia

Anonymous:
Hi Sonia,

Portia, DG and I and many others were all participating on the board for some time and sometimes a few people would come in and start attacking people for having opinions and generally wreaking havoc with people's rights to express themselves, putting them down, etc.  Quite messy and disruptive to the constructive conversations that have been taking place now.

This happened months ago and has since ceased.  No worries.  I'm glad you are finding this a safe place to come.  It has been quite a godsend for me.  Peace, Seeker

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