Lets pop the champagne and dance................... today is my first anniversary from XN and I wanna sing BORN FREE La la la la laaaa la
To celebrate I went for an early morning face and neck massage.........so lovely and what a treat.
Oh guys, little did I think this time last year that so much has happened in the year. Can I bore you guys with my list AGAIN. I want to see it in print and share it with you. Axa is a happy bunny.
Ok, before I dumped psychoN I was depressed, scared, no confidence, unemployed, thinking I was heading for the psych ward, smoking like a trooper, using wine to medicate the pain, isolated........... I could just go on and on.
Today I feel content, grounded, dare I say kinda happy, easy with myself. This changes at times, I go through difficult times but 90% of the time I feel GOOD
For the Newbies
Since I left him (I thought I would die with his "love"and would not be able to manage anything) I
Travelled half way round the world for a trip in India
Took part in a half marathon ( I am a couch potato)
Made a collection of paintings
Left my home and community
Moved to a new city
Cashed in my savings plan and went back to university for a post grad degree
Learned how to take of myself - sometimes I am very good - sometimes I am very bad
Stayed away from Ns
Confronted people - well does 2 count - who I felt were being abusive to me and did not did not rescue them when they started the games
Live alone - happily
Learned to drive in a busy city
Made new friends
confronted my "you are not good enough demons" and submitted my first paper on time
Learned that I love learning
Dream of doing a phd
Dream of having a tiny house in Italy
Dream of speaking Italian
Don't know where I am going other than completing this year at university but I trust all will be revieled
Have no desire to be in a relationship - first time ever!
Like me, sometimes even love me
AXA
