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Ami

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I Want The Board Back
« on: December 18, 2007, 07:06:27 AM »
I want the board back, as many others do.. . For MY part, I will NOT be part of the current "conflict" any longer. If anyone "snipes" at me, I will walk away.I will ignore overt and covert comments .
For my part,I do not want to add to one more second of this . I have many things to share.  ALL of them are about getting my voice back.
 Dr G gave me the gift of life. I want to do my part for the board ,which is to END this thing now, to the best of my ability.
  I have so many things to share with my family-- the board.I forgave my M. There are many others.
  That is my direction and I am walking in it --starting now.                  Love   Ami
 
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Re: I Want The Board Back
« Reply #1 on: December 18, 2007, 07:09:03 AM »
It is very nice that you can see and admit to being part of the conflict. I so hope we can have a functioning board back, Ami.
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Re: I Want The Board Back
« Reply #2 on: December 18, 2007, 07:17:10 AM »
The board  is a priceless gift. I had all that the world could offer EXCEPT  my voice and I had NOTHING. Your voice IS your life,Beth ,as I see it  .                          Ami
No one can make you feel inferior without your consent.        Eleanor Roosevelt

Most of our problems come from losing contact with our instincts,with the age old wisdom stored within us.
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Re: I Want The Board Back
« Reply #3 on: December 18, 2007, 09:29:13 AM »
Ami,

  If my perception is correct, I have noticed some actions and inactions on your part that seem to be steps  moving in a positive
  direction. 

  Did you ever see the movie with Bill Murray - was it What About Bob?   Baby Steps !

  Or- the saying that a journey of a thousand miles begins with one step ( paraphrased) .

  As for myself, the more I get in touch with my voice, the less I feel compelled to use it.

  Now, having said that, I remember one of the quotes - was it Iphi ?  had on her posts-  If you think you are so enlightened, go
  spend some time with your parents.  Again paraphrased, and I think she quoted Ram Dass.  I really get that one!

  I know in 3D it's much harder for me, but practice will make perfectly imperfect!

  OK, I'm finished with my mangled paraphrasing!

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Re: I Want The Board Back
« Reply #4 on: December 18, 2007, 04:52:46 PM »
Ami,

  I don't know at this point if you missed my post, or don't want to respond.

  What I was wondering is are you still NC with you mother?  Do you plan to see your father or aunt for Christmas?

  I had mentioned in a post that this will probably be my mother's last Christmas.  I am hoping I retain enough "enlightenment"
  for the day to go as smoothly as possible.  I was not making a reference to you, I was talking about myself.

  At one time, I had wondered if we could share part of the journey when you mentioned how your mother is 80, and to me, that is
  one of the things "having the board back" is about.  For you, it may be something very different.

  If you choose to not respond to me at all, Ami, on this thread, or on another, then I won't write to you any more.

  Either way, Ami, I wish you blessings for the journey.

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Re: I Want The Board Back
« Reply #5 on: December 18, 2007, 05:30:48 PM »
Dear Cat,
  I was not sure what you were asking . Now you have clarified it,so I will be very happy to answer.I am NC with my M. I may see my F. I would like to see my M if I could----- w/out regressing (I haven't come that far-lol)
Cat,it is very hard --contact OR NC  .The whole thing is very hard. I am so sorry you are dealing with it,Cat. the best answer is to try to quietly ask your "gut" for the best way to go(IMO). Love   Ami
No one can make you feel inferior without your consent.        Eleanor Roosevelt

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Re: I Want The Board Back
« Reply #6 on: December 18, 2007, 06:29:29 PM »
Ami,

  Thanks for responding.  I had further questions to ask you, which I did, that I did not ask or refer to in my first post.  I  needed
  clarification from you about whether you wanted to write to me, because you did not respond to my initial post on this thread, so I
  did the only thing I could do, and that was to ASK :)

   I think it's so sad, Ami - that you would like to see your mother but cannot.  Regression is not something you want, so if sadness
   and all those other messy things are too much right now, I won't ask you to talk about yours.  If you cannot respond on any I 
   might write, it's ok.

   For my own comfort, and for yours, I wanted to ask if I was being pointedly ignored because of my first post.  We have never had
   squabble, so I didn't want to continue to step on your toes and then just try to wonder if you were sending me a message about
   something I wrote by not responding.  Which in some cases, would be the best response- that is what I meant by the positive
   direction- your actions and inactions.

   So, thanks Ami- and unless and until you tell me directly, that you consider me one of those cases, I'll see you around on your 
   posts, my posts - whenever the spirit moves.
   
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Re: I Want The Board Back
« Reply #7 on: December 18, 2007, 06:49:59 PM »
Ami,

  No worries, I got your PM.  It takes me forever to do my two-fingered typing, and I was composing my last post.

  Do you have any traditions with your sons and husband for the holidays?

Cat


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Re: I Want The Board Back
« Reply #8 on: December 19, 2007, 07:29:45 AM »
Dear Cat,
 Thank you for your question about my family. We don't have specific holiday traditions,but we have many  everyday "traditions" .. My sons and I laugh a lot. We joke and try to see the zaniness in life(there IS enough of that). WE read together and have cocoa or tea.
  We talk about all  sorts of things(work, friends, girlfriends).
  God blessed me with warmth and love in this relationship that was lacking with my M. I have two good friends, who are a warm blessing, too.
  What about you, Cat? Do you have traditions that you could share? I would love to hear.       Ami
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Re: I Want The Board Back
« Reply #9 on: December 19, 2007, 08:01:43 AM »
Good Morning Ami,

  Our traditions were the usual - tree, midnight services, presents, and as I've mentioned on other threads - goose.

  My parents did have nice holidays for us when we were young, and when they divorced and remarried, there were two nice holiday
  gatherings to attend.  It was hard to go to two places, though, and each of them wanted Christmas Day.  My (deceased) husband 
  and I were thankful his family celebrated early with us before they went to their yearly holiday destination.

   We don't do gifts any more, a few years ago I suggested that we stop because we are all very fortunate and have everything we
   need.  I will be getting my mother a couple of nice gowns, though. She's not quite bedfast, but is homebound.

   Things change a lot over the years, and I'm looking forward to trying different things; perhaps my husband and I will  travel in
   some Christmas Futures.

    It does sound very warm, indeed, that you and your sons have everyday traditions.  They are quickly becoming young men, so I'll
    bet you treasure every moment.

Cat

   

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Re: I Want The Board Back
« Reply #10 on: December 19, 2007, 08:11:17 AM »
Dear Cat,
  I see how God has blessed me in many ways. Prior to the board,I could ONLY see the bad(my N mother). My life was "clouded" with her and my  "flaws" as a result of her.
  I am seeing beyond that now to the  good things . I "knew" that love was the way to foster any relationship ,so I tried to love my sons the best I could. Now, they give me love back( for the most part-lol)
 As you said, Cat, there are many blessings and joys in life if we can heal some of the pain first ,so our eyes can open.     Love to you   Ami
No one can make you feel inferior without your consent.        Eleanor Roosevelt

Most of our problems come from losing contact with our instincts,with the age old wisdom stored within us.
   Carl Jung