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gratitude28

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Re: Outgrowing the board?
« Reply #15 on: January 09, 2008, 07:15:16 AM »
Tayana,
I think once you move into a *real* life, you are right, you outgrow the need to be here constantly. For me, I try to come back to help anyone I can when I get some free time. Also, although you can feel better for long periods, there will be times when even the strongest of us needs a shoulder from a fellow sufferer.
Don't feel bad about enjoying your life. You need to focus on what is good for you and M now. But it would be great to hear from you now and then and know you are growing even more.
Love, Beth
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Re: Outgrowing the board?
« Reply #16 on: January 09, 2008, 10:59:38 AM »
Actually, tay.....

the coolest next step to healing, is encountering someone at the beginning of a struggle you've been moving through and resolving.

You can identify with it, and as you help another see mroe clearly..... you're internalizing and assimilating that information on a deeper level for yourself.

Teaching is the next step in being a student.




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Re: Outgrowing the board?
« Reply #17 on: January 09, 2008, 11:03:17 AM »
Way to go Tayana!

You've truly come a long way and accomplished so much!  

It's wonderful to think of you having your own voice and feeling well on your way to the life you want!!

That's what it sounds like to me, anyhow.

Keep going!  Best wishes for a future that continues along the path you want for yourself and your son.

 :D Sela

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Re: Outgrowing the board?
« Reply #18 on: January 09, 2008, 11:57:13 PM »
I'm not leaving the board permanently.  I'll pop in from time to time, but I won't be around as much.  Tonight my son had his very first friend over to the house for pizza.  They had a good time.  Contrary to what my mother said, he was a very good host.  There was no fighting, tears or anything like that.  They played some games, watched TV, played on the computer, etc.  I was really proud of him.  I have loads of pizza left over.

GS, you can PM me anytime you want to chat.  I'll answer.  I loved talking to someone who's had similar experiences.  Anytime.

Bella, I belonged to a guitar forum once, and it was very harsh.  The debates quickly degenerated into flames.  I also belong to several other forums, and I take spells of activity on them.  I'll be gone for a while then go back.  I do have to say, this is one of the better ones.

Whyme, I don't know your story, but just put down your goals and work toward them one step at a time.  I discovered the hardest step is the first one.  After that one, the others aren't nearly as hard.  Find a good T too, that's a real help, or if you can't afford a T look for a real life support group or possibly low cost program for counseling.  They do exist.

Beth, what I'm finding right now is that I feel really good.  I mean really, really good.  I spent over a week interacting with my N mom and although I did feel some anxiety, it wasn't terrible, not like before.  She just didn't get to me as bad.  What I'm finding right now is that some of the stories here are very triggering for me, so I'm doing really well at offering advice.  I think that will change soon, and I might be around more.

Amber, I definitely will come around now and again. 

Now, I just have to muster up the courage for a date.  I'm getting there slowly.
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Re: Outgrowing the board?
« Reply #19 on: January 10, 2008, 01:44:34 PM »
I found for me the internet is a big pain-duller, so it can become somewhat addictive.

I didn't like the amount of time I spent on it and on what felt like time-wasting introspection which was simply distracting me from what I felt I needed to physically get on and do.
That said- I found there are many more emotional reasons for doing or not doing stuff than always seems apparent- if I need to do paperwork but have a strong emotional need being met by not doing it ( avoidance of discomfort, beliefs about myself, beliefs about the paperwork etc ) simply freeing the time and avoiding distractions isn't enough to actually get it done!

Dropping in and out is nice but I am not up to speed where many of you are at now too, which makes me reluctant to comment too much except generally.

It is nice to have a forum to write things out- a journal still feels a little voiceless if you know what I mean.

I have booked a therapy appointment though to process the latest little growth thing and also keep myself in that therapeutic relationship. Ongoing support is part of my bipolar careplan and a big part of managing my life with ex.

When I would define having outgrown something is
*if the experience is no longer satisfying in a healthy way
*if it contributes to my being 'stuck'- though I am aware there are times we have to stand still just to let the whirlwind around us die down.

It's important for a cupport group I think to have people go through this most difficult experience and see them come out the other side and rebuild a good life- that's what kept me going when I felt I would never make sense of mine again, the people who were coping even moving on.

~W