Dear Write,
I do hear you... and appreciate your views, with respect, as always.
And this -
People tell their story pretty quickly but the very things which would repulse someone with a healthy relationship background attracts someone like me;
as my therapist would say 'oh- you'll get your mother and father to love you this time then?!'
Yes. That's so clear and obvious, yet I needed to read you say it in just that way.
Just realized that I spent so much time and energy and effort trying not to be like my mother, that I couldn't see the
very real distance-putting qualities (if you can call them that) of the people with whom I was trying to make connections.
And Write... I am still so gullible about certain things. Had to leave work early today because my son had an accident... and he's okay, thankfully, but... then the phone rang - a woman from work - and silly me, I thought she was calling to inquire re: my son... but what she wanted was to know if I'd come in early tomorrow to fill in for someone else. Having done alot of that, I've proven myself very useful to these folks. But somehow, being useful is not quite as fulfilling as it used to be.
Sure would have been nice if she'd just called for no other reason than to check on us here...
Thank you for the talk, Write
Love,
Carolyn
