a bit of lightness

[axa]

Last weekend I went for an ice skating lesson, another today.  Scary stuff, first time.  But what did strike me as I was gliding(not) around the ice was when I kept looking straight ahead I was able to balance.......... reminded me a bit of life, when I am focused on where I am going I tend to take less tumbles.  Also it was good fun and something I was scared of.  just thought i would share this

axa

[Leah]

Wow, Axa

That sounds tremendous fun, as a 'dancing on ice' fan   

So glad you enjoyed it, and well done you, brave thing.

Hope you enjoy many many more weekends.

And, I so resonate with the Focusing aspect and illustration, very much so.

Affirming.

Love, Leah

[Hermes]

Yes, a bit of lightness is a great idea.

Skating on thin ice here, but I get desperately tired of counsels of perfection.

Hermes

[axa]

Yep, Leah, as in "Dancing on ice" but more like baby steps on ice..............remember how I started here with all those baby steps also.  Little did I think when I first came to this board sitting in an internet cafe in Eastern Europe that I would make so many changes in my life.  And yes, they all started with baby steps, well, maybe throwing XN out was a giant step but after that came the baby steps.  Sometimes I have to pinch myself when I think of how different things are now and I value the changes I had the courage to make, they were worth it.  I sometimes do get feelings of dread when I think of the future but like the ice skating I try and stay present to what I am doing at the time and it passes.  That is something I have learned from the horror of XN - everything passes, painfully, slowly but it does pass and not necessarily in the way I would choose but he! given up on trying to control things.

Things that have helped me along this road have been, exercise (which I am not doing much of at the moment) meditation (still sticking to at least three hours a week) and getting my brain so engaged in learning that without effort some distance manifests between XN Horror Time and now.  This board has been wonderful but I find I have less and less time to post also, I find my focus is more in the 3D world but I do need my friends here.  I know when things get scary for me I can find a friend here who helps me over the hump...........was I writing about ice skating???????????????

Hermes,

Appreciate your posts - keep skating...

xxxxxxxx

axa

[Lupita]

Axa, your metaphore was precious, I loved it. It is true, if we focus our selves we can do it, we can. I little by little am finding my voice, and get very upset when somebody tries to turn me down, but I recover and just focus on my recovery, and forget about the people who scorn my opinions.

I think I am going to read the book you recommended in the other thread. What is the author?

Thanks.

[Leah]

((((( Axa ))))))

Truly, so very very glad, for you, in your journey.

Sincere best wishes with your studies, and for your future happiness, also.

We all, each and every one of us; deserve happiness, peace, and love, in our hearts.

Remaining focused is the key, I think.

Your ice skating illustration is perfect, i think.

Slan

Love, Leah