Almost Out From Underwater

[Ami]

I feel very thankful, today. There have been SO  many wonderful voices on the board. I started to name them, but knew that it would take the whole page ,so stopped.
 I have learned so much from the  topics we have discussed such as shame, Alice Miller,childhood abuse  etc.
 I see that I will be emotionally well, at some point.
 Emotional health(IMO) is being able to face the truth, all the truths,of life, other people and yourself.
 The hardest one is  facing myself.
 Someone wrote a thread about ,"How could THEY do that?'
The thread stuck in my mind.
 I realized that I must face "all" the "how could they do thats" of myself and everyone else.
They COULD do it b/c they are human,or  "sick" and they could.
So, I can either face the truth, or be "sick" .
This is my current dilemma, looking outward and "seeing" with my own eyes, and my own heart.               Ami


 
 

[Gaining Strength]

What great news Ami.  I am thankful for you, thankful that you have a repreive from the pain you have been suffering.  Thanks so much for you help for me, also.  I am still making progress though today I have had another struggle with anxiety/shame.  Each one gets shorter and less devastating tough.  Thinking of you - GS

[Ami]

Thank you ,GS.
If we hold hands ,maybe we can come up from the murky waters in to the light.                Love,   Ami

[Leah]

(((( Ami ))))   ~   (((( GS ))))

warm thoughts and good wishes

Leah x

[Ami]

 I am doing snorkeling as opposed to deep sea diving,tanks and all (lol)               Ami

[Gabben]

Hi Ami,

Wow-- wonderful news. I have sensed your healing and progress. I think without periods of rest or progress we would not keep doing this work. It is kind of like finding an oasis in the desert it helps make the journey tolerable.

Lately I have been feeling like my old self but with the new integrations of the healing work I have tread through this past year. There is also a sense of calmness and my spirit is less reactive. It feels good.

Gabben

[papillon]

Hi Ami,

Glad you're not out of underwear.

I see that I will be emotionally well, at some point. Considering what has been happening with you, and your family life's issues I think you're amazing.... already. And wait, there's more. 

 The hardest one is  facing myself. Ain't it the truth. It's just so easy to live in an externalized emotional world full of wounds and woundings. The old cliche about when we point the finger we have 3 pointing back at us. Externalized anger, externalized rage, externalized humiliation etc. Going within is just adult and responsible. We automatically make life easier for everyone we love, and our community generally.

You offer so much warmth and encouragement to people, I hope you go within with that too, and share it with your self.

Papillon

Is this a  joke free zone?
No -   
Okay then, here's some Woody Allen for you.

When I played softball, I'd steal second base, then feel guilty and go back.
I asked the girl if she could bring a sister for me. She did. Sister Maria Teresa. It was a very slow evening. We discussed the New Testament. We agreed that He was very well adjusted for an only child.
I took a test in Existentialism. I left all the answers blank and scored 100/100
If you want to make God laugh, tell him your future plans.
I am at two with nature.
I can't listen to that much Wagner. I start getting the urge to conquer Poland.
I'm astounded by people who want to 'know' the universe when it's hard enough to find your way around Chinatown.
It seemed the world was divided into good and bad people. The good ones slept better... while the bad ones seemed to enjoy the waking hours much more.

[Ami]

Thank you Papillion for your  encouragement ,kindness and   humor.
 I appreciate it all !
 I see that you have taken your life in  your own hands. You could have stayed beaten down and  angry ,but you tried to "own" who you are. That is my goal.
 If I cannot own myself, what is my life worth?
 It is worth very little.
 I am so glad you are on the board,Papillion. I feel like I have a fellow traveler!
  Keep sharing, as you give wisdom in your words. I am very grateful for your presence on the board. You are part of the wonderful change that the board has gone through.     With Gratitude,       Ami       
 

[Ami]

Thank you, Besee, for your beautiful voice. I am so glad you are back!                Love   Ami

[Leah]

((((((( Ami ))))))

Truly, your voice is stronger.

thoughts of you.

Love, Leah

[Ami]

THANK YOU ,Leah !                            Love to you,   Ami

[Ami]

Thank you ,Lise.
We have a promise that the 'truth" will set us free. You and I are sure seeking it,Right?                    Love   Ami


(((((((((Lise)))))))))))