a successful thought intervention

[Gaining Strength]

Iphi - you have started a profound thread that I have much to post on but the days chores are calling me so I will just start with this.  What you describe you experience when you start to get sick is what I have lived with daily for years.  I have been learning over the past year or so to change those thoughts and it has changed my life.

Just this past week and even just this morning I was having dark anxious thoughts and worked hard to change them to something positive about being loved and feeling love.  It truly quells the shame and anxiety that held me captive for years.

So glad for your intervention so sorry for your illness. - GS

[Iphi]

Hi folks - I am so glad this post has found resonance here with you.  This is something that is very hard-learning for me.  I find that thoughts move so quickly - I am down in the dark before I know it.  But I find that dark hole so very, very familiar.  I would about do anything to get to a change of scenery!  It's even tediously familiar, you know?  I say 'oh man, here I am again.  So tired of being here.'  Let's go somewhere new.

I will always want to hear about any time someone is able to fend off and avoid those dark thought patterns.  I hope others will share their moments of inward victory with us here whenever time permits.

[gratitude28]

Iphi,
I just found this post and wanted to say I have the same thing happen each month with my *female affliction.* I have two or three days when the world seems as bleak as bleak can be and I am realizing now it is not something I can control, but it is something I can let roll off of me.
When I hadf my sciatica last month, I blamed myself fretfully and felt I deserved it for this and for that. I often feel when something happens to me that I deserve it. I know where this comes from - my parents. If they see a horrible news item, they are always quick to jump in and say the victim must have deserved whatever fate they received. It doesn't matter how innocent the person - it is always their fault. So I tend to think that way about myself now.
Iphi, I do what you said - I just realize I am there and turn away from the darkness. I think there is no other way. But I also think that as you have more practice, you fall in the hole a lot less often.
Lots of love, Iphi.
Beth

[Ami]

Speaking of having periods, Beth. I have not had mine for two months since Scott died, so you can imagine how I feel--bleh(lol)
                                                                                                                    Hugs, Ami

[gratitude28]

Oh no, Ami. I guess grief can really shut your body down. Have you talked to your doctor?
Love, Beth