Hi tjr,
Don't you love those "aha" moments!
Yes -- just recently I reflected on how in my relationship with the N saint therapist I was acting the co-dependent role beautifully.
I was feeding off of her popularity. But that was only about 20% of the dynamic between her and myself. I was also really under the disilusion that she was good and super loving as she seemed to act the part so well.
I really wanted to heal and be well which means facing my ugly parts too.
Since this N was not a "safe person" to explore myself with I could not be comfortable around her unless I was feeding her image by affirming it with my co-dependent role.
But as I began to grow and heal I began to see her for who she really was. That was the real turning point when she kept trying to erase me or mold me to fit back into her mold, but I would not -- I refused to be or act the co-dependent role with her anymore and that pissed her off.
As I was growing and really trying to reach the N parts of my own self, the parts where I was not affirmed as a child, she only seemed to get colder and more distant...the N cannot accept themselves...when they are around others that can accept themselves, good and bad, the N's get envious and slam us.
Here is an article I found:
Hope this helps.
http://www.alanrappoport.com/Co-Narcissism%20Article.pdfCo-alcoholics unconsciously
collaborate with alcoholics, making excuses
for them and not confronting them about
their problem in an assertive way. The same
is true of the co-dependent person, who
makes excuses for the other’s dependency
and fills in for him or her as necessary. The
wife of an abusive husband who takes the
blame for her partner’s behavior is another
example of taking responsibility for
someone else’s problems. Both narcissism
and co-narcissism are adaptations that
children have made to cope with narcissistic
parenting figures.