Dear Izzy,
I have not been following too much of what is going on your threads and your posts but I have seen and read enough to know that you may be hurting...please know that I care about you. I have always like you here and enjoyed your wit.
When my anger started emerging it first surfaced in the form of critizism to others, most non-verbal. I was filled with anger and resentments which really was a sign of my repressed anger at years of my mom's critizism and verbal abuse and the deep pain in my heart.
It is OK to be so hurting that we are incapacitated. With the kind of childhoods that we have had we never got to just loose it....really loose it and let it all out. I've done that many times this year, it helps.
I love and care about Ami -- she is hurting right now but she is a big person who forgives and has the humility to see the shape the other person is in. Please don't hurt her right now....she needs love and she is deserving of it and so are you.
Please Izzy -- I want to hear your pain -- I don't want you to isolate yourself here.
Love and hugs to you,
Lise
