Moving Forward

[Hopalong]

How did today go, GS?

Hope if there was one step back you remember about two steps forward, and do the math.

love
Hops

[Gaining Strength]

The days are going well.  So much better than in many years.  I am developing a confidence in my relationships with other people and it is a tremendous relief.  The nights are the most difficult but that will come in time.

I have this little book about "favor" that repeats in many ways to "expect favor", expect good things to happen, expect people to be nice, expect people to like you, and on and on.  In reading this daily and practicing it over and over I have come to see how profoundly my expectations had been shaped to expect the worst in every situation, insignificant and significant alike.  I expect waiters and waitresses to keep me waiting and to bring me the wrong order and to charge me too much.  I expect the clerk in the store to wait on the person who came in after me before waiting on me. I expect the other mother's on the baseball team to exclude me from their conversations or to leave me out in some other way.  But as I change this attitude I am finding that people are beginning to ask me to do things or I am willing to ask people to do things.  It is one of the strangest things I have ever experienced - to see it working is beyond miraculous.  My resentment and bitterness are evaporating!  My hope is growing and my fear and anxiety are dramatically diminishing.  That old devil shame is still powerful but I have cut off at least 10 of its 20 heads and I won't stop until I have cut them all off.  Oh when I begin to get frustrated by my little boys defiance I remember to love him like it's my last chance and even his attitude changes almost immediately.  Life is beginning to be worth living.  I am thankful.

And it is impossible to express what a difference you all have made.  To see you echo my progress back to me when I cannot see it has encouraged me and strengthened me and pushed me forward in my journey.  I could not have done it without you all.  Thank you from the bottom of my heart. - Got it now!

[Ami]

Dear GS
 I could hear  that you WERE different, earlier today. Now, after reading your post, I can see what happened. You "shifted" in how you "thought " about yourself. 'As a man thinketh in his heart, so is he".
 I was thinking about it, yesterday.
If WE think some way about ourselves, it becomes reality,in a way that is hard to fathom. You are experiencing this and I am so happy. You have all the qualities that anyone would want in a friend, loving, caring,loyal, wonderful listener,iinterested in other people, open, warm. In fact, you have taught me so much about how to be a friend.
 Your ONLY problem is believing the old ,worn out messages about yourself, the lies and distortions. In REALITY, a person would be blessed to call you a friend !         Love   Ami

[Hopalong]

Oh GS.
Know what?
It is showing on your face.
You're thinking friendly thoughts toward people...they can see it and so respond!

Wow. As lovely as you were before, having light in your mind...you'll be a knockout.

SO proud of you, girl. ATTA GIRL, GS!!!!!!!!!!!!

love to you,
Hops

[Gaining Strength]

Thanks Ami and Hops.  Boy do those Atta Girls feel good!

[seasons]

It is one of the strangest things I have ever experienced - to see it working is beyond miraculous.  My resentment and bitterness are evaporating!  My hope is growing and my fear and anxiety are dramatically diminishing.  That old devil shame is still powerful but I have cut off at least 10 of its 20 heads and I won't stop until I have cut them all off.  Oh when I begin to get frustrated by my little boys defiance I remember to love him like it's my last chance and even his attitude changes almost immediately.  Life is beginning to be worth living.  I am thankful.

Got Strength your are amazing!!!   Strong, Loving, Giving, Accepting, Deserving of A BEATIFUL LIFE!Congratulations, love oxox seaons

[sKePTiKal]

grooooviness, GS!

I swear, there are so many of us getting to a good place, we need to have a have party to celebrate!

[Leah]

((((( Got Strength )))))  you are a shining beacon.

Love, Leah