Izz, the problem is that W does not do it in purpose. He does not even realize what he is doing, he is totally unaware, he is sleepwalking through life. Total lack of awareness. So, I do not even get mad at him, I get mad at my self for falling in the trap that I am aware and he is not. I do not have the paciences to educate him, I already educated my son, cannot have another son now.
But yours probably does it in purpose. It is called passive agressive. I do not know, anyway, it is similar but at the same time it is different.
CB, you are right. I need to focus on the now, enjoy the resent, enjoy the now,my son is now here and I need to enjoy that.
The thing is that I am concerned that it is dificult to find a good person, even if you so not match but you that is a good person that will not do anything to hurt you.
To find anothe man that is good person, available, single, is difficult.
I am afraid that I am wasting the only opportunity that I might have inlife to have a companion.
At the same time, I do not want to lower my standards of what I want just for not to be alone, and have a companion, just having someone who cares.
I thought I knew what I wanted, now I do not know.
Do I want company? I would have it with him.
Do I want love? I would have it with him.
Do I have somebody to understand me? He does not understand sh*t. Zero.
When I lucked up my self out of my apartment, he brought his drill and drilled the luck, open the door, fixed it, and I only paid the cost of a new luck. If I had to call luck smith it would have costed $200.00, He was happy to help me.
He is very good with computers, hes is helping me with my teacher skills by teaching me programs that make me a better teacher.
For example he tought me how to save videos that I find in the net and show them to my students, also helps me with the power point presentations etc. He is glad to help me.
He makes me CDs of Eckart Tolle althgouhg he understand sh*t of them.
Am I being selfish and I am not understending that a human being is going to give you god things and bad things?
Why do I get so desperate when I am with him? He makes me extremely irritated.
That is the problem. My tolerance for frustration is very low.
So, due to that, I have to find a man from Mars because terrestrians are very strange.
I dont know what to think.