CB,
I was very touched by what you wrote. This is a beautiful thread. As I was reading through your words, what sounds like an experience of transformation of something very dark and painful, something that you allowed yourself to go through rather than around or not at all, I heard myself repeating the Psalm about singing a new song.
The pains I am in are the same old song that has been singing in my heart since my mom abandoned me as a child, the song of loss, terror, blackness, confusion etc. This thread is giving me hope that one day I may be singing new new song of sweetness rather than this old bitter song that seems to stubbornly keep playing in my heart, but at different volumes levels as I work through rather than not at all.
Thanks,
Lise