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sunblue

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Triangulation and Dad's Health Crisiis
« on: December 05, 2010, 09:24:19 PM »
Hello Everyone:

Thank you again for your good thoughts regarding my dad and his health crisiis.  He is in a rehab facility now although it's still touch and go.  It's been a very difficult time.  I've been doing the night shift every night and some days as well....but the Narciissism of my Nmom and Nsis has been over the top.  I really think crises like these bring out the very worse in Ns.  This whole situation has reallly reinforced how really, really sick my Nmom and Sis and even my co-D dad is.  My NSiis is so sick she will not allow my brother or I to have a private conversation with my mom.  She literally comes between us (physically by inserting her body between us and my mom).  She's so sick.  My mom refuses to allow my bro or I any say my dad's care.  She won't make a move within my Nsis's approval.  They call the shots on everything.  My stress level has really escalated...because I realize I guess what they have done to my brother and I in our lives.  I realize that when or if my dad is released, it will be even worse.  My bro and I will be frozen out of his life entirely because my Nmom and Nsis will control it.  My Nmom has already announced she will sleep on a couch next to him---a vigil of sorts.  So ironic, since she's treated him so badly throughout their marriage.  But it's all about her.....the Narcissism in these last 6 weeks has been out of control.

I'm beginning to wonder whether God had a plan in saving my dad....and that the plan was for me to finally understand and accept that I will never have a place in theiir lives...that they are sick...and that no matter how much I may love them, they don't return it...that they don't care 1 wit about me and never will.  I'm wondering if the purpose was for me to undertand this, grieve it and move somewhere.  I know I will have to move now as I cannot be in the same hosue as my Nsis who will no doubt camp out there once he is released.  Now I know my bro and I won't even be able to see my dad on Christmas because my Nsis will camp out there theentire hliday weekend.  So unfair.

So my question is about triangulation.  Does anyone understandi t?  Does it apply in a family situation whether there is a Nmom, Nsis and Co-D dad?  Any thoughts?

Thanks for listening.

Sunblue

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Re: Triangulation and Dad's Health Crisiis
« Reply #1 on: December 06, 2010, 10:08:36 AM »
Oh yes!

Triangulation goes on the entire time with these Wacko N's!  It's a part of their sick games!

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Re: Triangulation and Dad's Health Crisiis
« Reply #2 on: December 06, 2010, 10:56:02 AM »
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that the plan was for me to finally understand and accept that I will never have a place in theiir lives...that they are sick...and that no matter how much I may love them, they don't return it...that they don't care 1 wit about me and never will.  I'm wondering if the purpose was for me to undertand this, grieve it and move somewhere.

Sunblue, I TOTALLY understand what you're feeling right now. It also took a crisis in my family to get me to see the truth. In my case, it was my NM who got sick. She's allegedly is dying of cancer, though she's two years past her expiration date, so I'm definitely not being told the truth. But regardless, her illness brought out the true colors of both my Co-F and Co-Sis. (My brother, the GC, seems irrelevant at this point since he's too into himself to care and is staying out of this.)

After NM got her diagnosis, my Co-F changed in a very dramatic and abrupt way. He did some very cruel things to me in the interest of pleasing his dying queen. My Co-sister, who I always kind of felt sorry for, also ran to the defense of my mother. It was like being hit in the head with a brick. Suddenly, after decades of making excuses for them, I realized the truth. My Co-F NEVER loved me, and co-Sis probably didn't either. I made the decision to sever ties with my father last year. I too, have had to learn to accept this and to grieve, and to move forward from here. I am now NC with my entire family. It's exactly as you said, that I now realize that I will never have a place in their lives. So I felt that my only option was to leave.

Maybe, in some twisted way, this is a good thing. Had I not found out the truth about Co-Father now, I probably would have spent my life savings caring for him in his old age, only to find out that his precious son, the GC, was the sole heir. Better to find out now, before I could get hurt any further. Of course, none of want to be hurt at all, but IMO it's inevitable that we learn the ugly truth about our FOO, so maybe it's for the best that we DO get hit with that brick on head, and at least have the chance to move on. The hurt, for me, becomes less with each day. And as each day passes, I'm able to see the silver lining. At age 50, I still have many years ahead of me where I can be happy and free of their torment. So I guess you could say it's a gift of sorts, to learn the truth while you're still young enough to have a second chance at happiness. It's going to be easier now, at this age, to find a way to cope and move on, than if I were at the end of my life myself. Even though they stole 50 years of my life, if I'm lucky, I may have another 30-40 years of happiness. It's a bit like being re-born, I guess.

I hope that made sense. It's always hard to find the right words to discuss a situation that's so darned weird.

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Re: Triangulation and Dad's Health Crisiis
« Reply #3 on: December 08, 2010, 12:32:22 PM »
Playing people off against each other seems to be one of their favourite sports. The devastation this causes is difficult to explain but nevertheless very painful.  The reason for this beyond the pleasure of the sport and drama is to remain the centre of attention. The triange involves people in the roles of victim, persecutor and rescuer.  Each role has its own toxic legacy. The players take turns in all the roles.

It sounds like you are transcending the drama and taking care of yourself. Nobody wins in these family dramas. Good you are seeing the patterns that are so destructive. You can't fix it.

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