Voicelessness and Emotional Survival Message Board
Voicelessness and Emotional Survival => Voicelessness and Emotional Survival Message Board => Topic started by: Hopalong on December 22, 2013, 06:32:36 PM
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Just a general "I'm sorry" for being bent out of shape and more brittle than usual.
I erect every barrier I can and stave it off, and then one day or another around now
I just crumble, missing the child who used to love me. I'm assailed with memories of
her happy laugh, her hugs, her affection and her delightful quirkiness.
Now, there's a morose young woman on YouTube, the only glimpses I get, either
slurring from sedation or all wound up...fixated on the most violent sport and most
violent art she can find. It's where her anger and grief and illness took her, and I wonder
if I'll ever get her back.
This time of year is hell, punctuated with peaceful intervals when the grace comes
through anyway.
So a heartfelt shout-out to all who have lost anyone they love...in hopes that
the true meaning buried under the dreck will shine through and comfort you.
love
Hops
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Life is hard, but Merry Christmas anyway, Hops.
mud
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((((((((((((((((((Hops))))))))))))))))))))))))))
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Hops, there's nothing you need to say sorry for.
I hope your D finds her way through her own troubles and finds some peace and harmony in her life. And I hope that when she does you can get some more happy memories to add to the ones you already treasure.
Hope the holiday season is whatever it needs to be to get you through it.
Lots of love xx
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Oh Mud, the same to you, sweet man.
I can't imagine how tough this Christmas is for you.
I so hope the Babe you believe in turns his sweet
face toward you, and you find comfort. I am thinking
of you every day.
Thank you Miz Bones and a huge Bones-crushing hug back.
It's rough on you too, this time of year. Meet you on the roof
for a reminder about that incredible, starry sky we all belong to...
Bless you back, Tupp, and the same wish for you and your
boy. A quiet, peaceful, sweet time when it all makes more sense.
Love to all, and nearly a ho-ho...well, won't go that far.
:P
Just love.
Hops
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(((((((((((((Hugs to all who don't have families to go home to)))))))))))))))))))))
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Hopsie, Merry Christmas to you!
Yesterday, I delivered some baked goodies to new friends... and walked into a gaggle of pups who surrounded me, wiggling all over, and washing me till I giggled and wiggled right back at 'em, with puppy kisses. It was JUST what I needed. I became a 5 yr old, instantly...
Hubs & I are hermit-ing... not out of a sense of loss... just an "aaahhhh" of we don't have company; aren't going anywhere; have the house to ourselves - and are just being "to ourselves" for the time being. It seems like the perfect thing to do this Christmas. And we'll be like a couple of college kids on spring break... except there will be more naps... LOL...
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Sounds lovely, PR...I wish you and your dear hubs a mellow, snuggy holiday.
xo
Hops
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(((Hops)))
::sending you strength::
I hope fellowship in community, and your beloved pup, help you endure, and abide.
This too shall pass.
Lighter
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(((Lighter))) thank you...I hope yours is snuggly too.
I'm snorking sherry and filing papers with the pooch to cheer me on...
she does an excellent job of it too.
Not half bad. It's the run-up that gets its excruciating moments.
But with one blessed friend, I've walked a couple miles 5 days out of the last 7,
so I'm feeling physically much better. That helps.
Off to bed, and off to work again 12/26.
And so it goes.
hugs and happies,
Hops
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Merry Christmas Hops,
I am so glad you are still here. You have been such a wonderful inspiration to me over the years.
I know you feel so sad about your daughter but you don't deserve to feel so much pain. I is so heartbreaking to have a daughter banish her mom. I know how that feels and it was more than I could bear and i ended up getting very sick. I kept loving her and ignoring her bad behaviour.
Please just be loving to yourself.
Lots of love,
Sea Storm