Voicelessness and Emotional Survival Message Board
Voicelessness and Emotional Survival => Voicelessness and Emotional Survival Message Board => Topic started by: Bean as Guest on May 03, 2006, 01:01:39 AM
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One thing I've learned, growing up in an abusive family is The Point of No Return. This is the point in a relationship, where I get so mad at the other person that I am all anger and hurt. I've been to the point of no return so many times in my life...
I must say, that this point is so familiar to me that many many many relationships of mine have ended (making it by definition, the point of no return).
Does anybody else no of what I speak? Just curious.
I just wanted to say that this week, I did not go there. It would have been easy to, but I didn't. I decided (naturally, it was actually easy for the first time in my life) to present my true self. My true self does not wish to go there, to the point of no return. My true self is not angry, is not hurting - my true self is accepting and caring and kind. That's all.
Have a good night. I'm with my boyfriend and he is the most wonderful thing that has happened to me in this world. I realize that tonight. I am safe, I have a good job, I have food in my tummy, and I am warm and loved. I hope that everyone else on this board and those that I love and care about are safe and warm tonight. And I hope that in some small way I can make other's lives better. But if not, it will not be for not trying.
bean
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Does anybody else no of what I speak? Just curious.
Totally. Or, this may be just a parallel, but for a very long time I couldn't exit things with anyone without making them "wrong". Recently a friendship ended and I didn't go there at all. Just said things to myself like, people come in and out of our lives for a reason, etc... I believe you didn't go there this week either and I admired your restraint, Bean.
My true self is not angry, is not hurting - my true self is accepting and caring and kind.
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Whoops, Bean, I hit the button too soon.
My true self is not angry, is not hurting - my true self is accepting and caring and kind.
That is completely clear to me.
I loved the end of your post too. Gratitude and grace.
Happy Wednesday, Bean.
Hops
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Have a good night. I'm with my boyfriend and he is the most wonderful thing that has happened to me in this world. I realize that tonight. I am safe, I have a good job, I have food in my tummy, and I am warm and loved. I hope that everyone else on this board and those that I love and care about are safe and warm tonight. And I hope that in some small way I can make other's lives better. But if not, it will not be for not trying.
(((((((((((((Bean)))))))))))))
I know what you mean about the point of no return. For me this was cutting contact with my bio dad when I just couldn't take anymore. I do feel what you mean about the anger and the hurt.
But I highlighted this part because.... wow.... I feel that because most of us have been in a place where we haven't felt loved, haven't felt safe and warm and some of us haven't always had a roof over our heads, however when we get it.... when we are with someone warm and loving, when we have food in a tummys, and when we feel safe, warm and loved.... when we have a good job, good people around us... we appreciate it... and I really felt this from your post.
Take care
H&H xx
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And I hope that in some small way I can make other's lives better. But if not, it will not be for not trying.
bean For sure!
I've had a point of no return. It had to be done, and I live with the what ifs. I miss what I wish we could of had.
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