Voicelessness and Emotional Survival Message Board
Voicelessness and Emotional Survival => Voicelessness and Emotional Survival Message Board => Topic started by: Portia on May 19, 2006, 06:17:23 AM
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Hi Write, hope you’re okay?
You posted that you were a bit hysterical yesterday after being with ex? And you weren’t following the text - in posts I guess?
I wanted to send you a PM to ask but I can’t find your member name, hence this.
Are you taking your meds okay? Hope you’ll be back soon, when/if you feel like it. I’ve enjoyed your posts and humour lately Write. Take care of yourself, best P
Edit in: …I’ve been looking and I guess you deleted your account and I’m sad to see that Write…I’ll miss you if you’ve gone. Hope you haven’t gone...or if you have, you're busy starting up an authentic oatcake shop :)
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Aww, no. I don't want Write to be gone.
I PM'd her last night because she's had such a bad week...didn't hear back.
I hope she's okay.
Write, your voice matters no matter what. Please don't let anything scare you off. There is more comfort here than hurt, or at least I hope there can be, on balance, over time...
((((Write))))
Hops
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Dear Write, I'm hoping also that you'll be back. Just in the short time I've been here, your postings have made a difference and I'm praying that we'll all have an opportunity to offer our support and encouragement to you through whatever battles you're facing.
With love, Hope
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Hi Write, Please let me know how you are doing .How are you sleeping and all your lovely poems.I know you had a rough week ,
me too .The dumb doctors now they do not think I have a ulcer I am getting a ct scan .I never had one of those .Write I sure do want you to know how much your support means to me.Well ,anyway hope your not feeling blue.Your posts mean so very much.............
LOVE
BIG HUGS
MOON
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Moon, honey...
I'm so sorry to hear you're having more tests. I know that's scary and I hope your bright moonlight will keep you feeling very safe and in touch with your good inner self.
When's your CT scan? I want to send vibes.
Well, prayers, but I never said that.
((((Moon))))
Hops
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Hi Hops , This does not seems too serious ,doctors think its not a ulcer but a hernia from a previous surgery but they are not sure.
My ct scan is this Tuesday coming up in the morning time.I am thinking its not anything big.But I should know more in a week or so.
I am not real worried .So I will let you know and thank you so much for caring HOPS.
Love and Light
Moon
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Write ,Just want to say I miss you.
Moon
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Write,
I hope you're ok too. Maybe it's just a breather for now eh?
Take care of you write.
Sela
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(((Write)))
I also am thinking of you!
((hugs seasons))
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Jac,
at the risk of possibly being perceived to be following you around in threads (and would that necessarily be a bad thing, given our current conversation?) – I want to say:
I didn't realize that my post would cause Write to feel the need to leave this forum.
I don’t know if your post did cause Write to feel that. Perhaps Write deleted her account for other reasons? She did say on another thread that she feeling a bit hysterical, and she’s told us that she’s bipolar – those are perhaps causes for her acting as she did. Who knows? I don’t. The reason Write did what she did is unknown to us. We can assume or speculate, but until/if Write tells us, we don’t know for sure.
Please don’t think that you have caused someone else to do something. It’s possible that your post affected Write (she felt emotion), but Write's actions are what she decides. And she has to take responsibility for her own actions. See what I mean?
We all feel affected by others. What we do with those feelings is our stuff.
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Portia, you are a Queen of Reason.
Sometimes your voice just cuts through chatter for me.
((((((((Portiaitatatata))))))))
Hops
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Yah Hops….but I’m human and fallible and still very much trying for self-acceptance and…can I take a compliment? :oops: Why do I have sooooo much trouble with it? :?: Is it to do with conflict stuff – ‘I agree with you/good point’ might imply ‘I disagree with x’ – am I hypervigilant/over responsible about this dynamic? Or if someone compliments me …. my mother/father/stepfather is going to get envious maybe….better not to get compliments?.................
Oh who knows! Sometimes I get sick and tired of my analysing, I do! I gotta go outside and play! :mrgreen:
Thanks Hop. :D
Better keep the thread on track, tidy, tidy...
((((((Write)))))), still wondering about you.
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Portia dolling,
I am saying, I find you smart. I like your thinking and it helps me. It's not about agreeing or not. I just like your mind.
(Siddown, have a glass of water.)
((((((P)))))))
Hops
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Thank you. I think you're smart too Hops, and you noticed....
(gulp) () (gulp) () ahhhh thanks Hops. How did you know my brain was frying up? 8) bye for now
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Me too, Bean.
Let's all PM her and beg her to read how much she's cared about here, okay?
I'll do it Write now. (oh, shoot. Maybe if she's closed her account we can't? In that case, I'll just hope she has a flicker of nostalgia soon and comes back and finds all these loving messages.)
Hops
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Hi bean ,I think I am the only other bi polar ,well no REALLYME is bi polar I think.bean , BP is a mood disorder.
Bi polar would have nothing to do with not getting or understanding text.It would have to do with mood swings .
I know write was having that problem (not following text) but BP does not cause that.
And I have trouble with sleep.
BP is a MOOD DISORDER.
What is going on with Write has nothing to do with her mind .If she stopped taking her meds that could make her emotional .
If you are drinking Write thats not good my Doctor told me not to do that to excess,if you are not I am sorry I asked. It is just because of worry.
BP effects emotions, not how intelligent you are.must be hard to be triggered by everyone
Love and Light
Moonlight
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bean, I am sure I can not read Writes mind .Peoples feelings get hurt even if they are not biploar.What other stuff is happening
in Writes life no one knows.Is Write taking her medication ?That is important.But the events ,what happens play a much more
important role than BP are just intense emotions . I my self have a good reason for being cranky.
I DID NOT SLEEP good and I am nervous about ct scan test on Tuesday .
I KNOW I am a big baby I never had one and I get nervous in enclosed places I AM OK I am just nervous of the dumb tests it will be OK.
MOON
PS WRITE LET US KNOW HOW YOU ARE !
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Maybe it was felt that leaving was just the Write thing to do...that's all.
Everyone caring is wonderful but maybe it was a personal choice...for many reasons.
I must say, I respect the choice to leave quietly and I will wait to see what happens next.
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bj THAT MAKES A LOT OF SENSE ....................THANKS
moon
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Thank you, Bj.
It's almost like an example of learning to accept "No."
thanks for pointing out the craziness of chasing someone into the ether...
Hops
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bean all I WANT for any person is what is best for them .I do not think in terms of goals game plan win lose. I GOT
all defensive about BIPOLAR disorder.It was very hard to tell to the board and I AM CRYING AND ASHAMED RIGHT NOW.
ITS SOME THING i need to work on.
moon
ps i did not say it must be" tough" to be triggered by everyone the word tough is not the kind of language i use
telling the board i was bp was difficult but i trusted i would be understood
BIG REPLY TO ALL ON PAGE 3
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Hope nobody minds if I repeat this.
I just thinking that the second form sounds accusatory.
Or maybe I'm just not fond of the verb, "trigger." Hmmm. My problem.
(I'd rather use one of the variety of feeling words on that great list someone posted...so many opions!)
I feel triggered when I read ___
vs.
I am triggered by [or] _"you"__ trigger me / "X" triggers me
Hops
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Geez, Moon, I hope you're not still crying and feeling ashamed, 'cause:
You seem like someone who would be among the first to send good thoughts to anyone else who felt that way,
and you offer so much good vibes and support here despite what you're carrying
and nobody would ever wish that on you
Hope you can reach out for some comfort and hugs,
LoH
PS - tight spaces scare me, too...was gulpy about getting a catscan, but guess what? They played really beautiful soothing music the whole time and the technicians were incredibly gentle and caring and made the whole thing was way easier than I'd have dreamed. I can really see you getting through it just fine, almost like it already happened and is behind you. Peace to your heart today and for Tues., Moon.
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HI bean and HOPS , My 27 year old just popped in and she will not put up with my whining,she's went to do her laundry now.A woman my age behaving so badly .But there I did it to me well its like this there is this n father that messed me up I AM WORKING ON IT.Believe me bean I have all the compassion in the world .I can see how you could feel triggered when you read that not so very nice stuff I wrote bean you were a innocent bystander. Then ellipse happened though no fault of your own.I own my own stuff .So you did not need to say sorry.bean what did you have to do with me genetically inheriting BP?I can be wonderful sometimes a pain sometimes just like every body else.I am so sorry.
Oh bean now you are being the kindest ever to say I am supporting you when you know you are the one supporting me.And thank you. I do. Did you know I had a dumb test coming up no.But when I get the results
and they tell me its just nothing to worry about I will be so happy .Sorry to be so jumpy.................................................
Great waves of Kindness and understanding are swirling around moons orbit
Hugs
Moonlight
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Hi Moon,
Who wouldn't be a little jumpy with a CT scan coming up?
You're handling it great. Daughters sometimes can't give adults permission to be vulnerable...in my experience anyway.
It will be good to have it over with, I know!
Hops
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I like this too, Bean, thank you:
See, the goal for me isn't to stay away from triggers, or even to stop having the feelings after I'm triggered. Nope. It's to react, in appropriate constructive ways. That creates more harmony for me, and less stress and will be healthier in the long run for me
It's as though wading straight ahead when you feel roiled up by something but detaching from the roiled up part and continuing to think...maybe it's practice. Practice in underreacting or in detaching some from emotion. I like that....off on my own tangent now, but your thought helped: Noticing when I'm reacting emotionally but not believing my own drama...staying in the play but remembering it's a human play, there's action offstage, there's a script, there will soon be arias, it's all okay.
I like what you said too, Jac, it's helpful: "The issue is in you and must be dealt with there."
Hops
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HI All . This thread has been a lesson.One lesson being ,thinking I know what anyone else is thinking.Just because bean said something about WRITE's Bipolar there I am off to the races .I was all paranoid
thinking no one understands bp,I am so different then that leads to all the other different stuff like having a really weird different n-father and family of origin messed up and all the feelings of being different .
What is that called being afraid or paranoid?Or what Whatever ever I think this is a good one to understand for me .I am getting closer and when I fully get a handle on it which I am.Its good.Its a very important
for me to learn not taking offense when none is meant. SORRY BEAN ...........................I really am ...........truly
But gift within problem I see what I DID bean I see what happened.I am not crying or ashamed just grateful to be understanding thanks bean
I am understanding so much more and feel stronger
ALSO we all want write to let us know how shes doing when shes ready
moon
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:( I'm sorry to hear the dear Write has deleted her account. She is so insightful and I have benefited so much from her. I do hope that she will come back soon!
WRITE... please come back.
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Hi ML Oh I feel the same way . I do hope she will read this and come back soon too. :(
a sad moon
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Write, are you there? :D
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Hope you're ok (((((((write)))))))
Sela