Voicelessness and Emotional Survival Message Board
Voicelessness and Emotional Survival => Voicelessness and Emotional Survival Message Board => Topic started by: gratitude28 on August 06, 2006, 10:46:59 PM
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Hi Everyone!!!!!
I missed you so much, but didn't have much access to a computer while on vacation. I hope you are all doing well, and welcome to anyone who joined in the meantime. I am looking forward to going through the past month's messages and topics.
Before I left, TT asked a question. It was to the effect of, "Has anyone ever gotten better?"
TT, I have to say, thanks to all of you, your suggestions and support and information, I do feel like a different person after this trip. I feel that I have been completely set free from all that held me back before.
For one thing, upon seeing my sister, one of the first things she said to me was that she realized/knew that mother treated me differently and did not like me. TOTAL VALIDATION. She and I have repaired years of hurt which my mother caused between us.
I was able to see how absolutely pathetic my mother's behavior is. I will detail some of it in another thread. It was tremendously horrible and embarrassing. But it also gave credibility to everything I have researched and everything you all have pointed out here.
At any rate, what about ME? Well, I am none of the things I believed I was because of the way my mother treated me. I am a well adjusted, well liked adult with my own super family. I am not responsible for them. I was treated horribly by her, but that can never be changed. I have no emotion towards her. I just feel like I am watching some sort of bizarre play when I am near her.
So, thank you all!!!!!!! I still plan to stick around. I'd like to help pass along some of the insight I've had, and share some of the stories... gosh will you all relate... when I get a bit more time.
Love, Beth
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Welcome back Beth. :D I'm really glad you had such a good vacation and received such validation from your sister. Looking forward to hearing about your insights.
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hi beth,
that's wonderful! thanks for sharing. where do you think your relationship will go with your sister now?? exciting...
pb
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beth - this is wonderful news - so glad to hear it! hugs -
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Well, hello there...
GREAT to see you back. What amazing progress! I am so happy for you. It is amazing to me how the Universe rewards our efforts in seeking and unveiling truth. I cannot wait to hear some of the details of your trip.
ANS
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Welcome back, Beth! It is so amazing that you had this insight and the validation from your sister. If you hadn't taken the trip it might not have happened like this for quite some time. It is good that you were brave enough (or tough enough?) to go there because that is where the truth was. I too would like to hear about your "aha"s. It will be inspiring.
Love, Pennyplant
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Hi Beth,
I'm very glad to read of your good news. Thanks for sharing your good news here.
Apparantly you missed some kind of big fight here but it now seems to be over.
I remember how you were the first one to greet me here, thanks again.
Anansi
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Dear Beth,
Welcome home and congratulations on what sounds like a true breakthrough! It's wonderful to hear that an experience which seemed so dreadful has worked out to prove liberating and deeply satisfying. I think that fearful anticipation is the absolute worst, but once that's been met and overcome so many new insights and possibilities begin to flow. You are an encouragement, always.
Love,
Hope
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Hi Beth, you sound good :D I'm glad, and yes, I would like to hear about : I have no emotion towards her. because I do sometimes feel emotion...not sure what it is...probably sadness for her and me I guess. But that's when I might be a bit reflective, rather than stuck watching some 'bizarre play' as you put it. Ditto - that's exactly what it can feel like, talk about unreality - it's like a different planet sometimes!
So glad your trip went as you say. Good to hear from you!