Voicelessness and Emotional Survival Message Board
Voicelessness and Emotional Survival => Voicelessness and Emotional Survival Message Board => Topic started by: moonlight52 on December 10, 2006, 12:35:57 PM
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Hi ALL,
Before MOON family takes off for our road trip .I have a minute.
The wow thread about lies got me thinking what if my dad was reading every word I had typed???????
wow!!!!! wow To me that would be great Because it would be the first time in my life that he would take an interest in my feelings.
Would he take a kindly interest in my feelings or just be concerned
(even with the hidden and private nature of these posts no names) )WITH HIS ANGER, I do not know.
Anything I have written I know has saved my life I am bipolar and prone to self destructiveness.
So would he be glad of my healing and know that this process saved my life and be happy for me or not?????????????????????
That leads me to my relationship with my children they feel free to say what is on their minds in trust and understanding Also love and sometimes they have said things
that were mean just too mean to say.That's ok......................
But as a parent their happiness I put foremost in my life.I am the parent I do not look to them for emotional support .
Or control them only to guide them the best of my ability with love.
I have learned much from my children..............................................
bye guys I better take a warm coat along
with much love and more
moonlight
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Would he take a kindly interest in my feelings or just be concerned
(even with the hidden and private nature of these posts no names) )WITH HIS ANGER, I do not know.
If you DID know, what would your answer be, dear Moon?
(That's what a supportgroup leader once used to say, when we'd say, I don't know. It was helpful?)
hugs,
Hops
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Hi ya Hops HUMMMMMMMMMMMM i
If I did know he was reading my words first of all I think he would just want me to stop writing about my feelings.
Some of them concern MY feelings about him I would have to say I have lived my life being so careful of his feelings..................
My next comment would be PLEASE LET ME BREATHE ........................
I am so tried of caring about pleasing you and I am not sorry for "stepping out of line".
I would say you have done things to help me and I have thanked you
But I could not live and keep on the way I was going
And I can not stand anything but the truth and also I would say
you can tell me how you feel about me .well he did
Really I believe we do understand each other he knows I am "out of trance"He is very intelligent
I find my life is my own MY FEELINGS ARE MINE HIS ARE HIS .......
And I would say It would be good to have a relationship that pleased us both AND the ball's in your court.......
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I find my life is my own MY FEELINGS ARE MINE HIS ARE HIS
Baravoooooooooooooo.
Out of trance is way better than in it, innit?
love
Hops
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Hops
yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
too cool tee hee innit 8)
thx
m
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Moon,
I hate to pee on your parade, but I think if he read your words, he would twist it onto his sick way of thinking... that you were unable to understand how great he is and you are a weakling or some such thing.
I wish I could say he would recognize the truth... but I can't believe that in my heart.
Love and fun on your trip.
Where will you go?
Love, Beth
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Hey Beth ,
My parade goes on through wind through rain and snow ............... Really I can take it whatever.
I am not expecting anything... But I really do wish every member of my FOO the best.
The freedom I have now is a good thing and I do wish my dad all the best really.
And I learned a lot from him. I hope he is happy .
I am keeping my side of the street clean and really do not harbor ill will.
This certainly was a process to get to where I have self esteem I would hope my Foo would be glad about that I wish them well.
LOVE TO YOU BETH You are a riot you little nudist you !!
The Flasher