I should not have posted this post. It has wreaked havoc. Emails between her and me and no resolution except she is sending me a 'gift' and hopes it helps me as much as it helped her. She was/is? in therapy. My 2 grandchildren are in therapy. Oh the damage caused by Ns, who never see therapy and just go about wreaking havoc on us.
I am changing therapists and also have my book, today, Healing The Shame That Binds You".
I feel ½ insane, even though I went to the Office today and chatted with about 5 people. They have absolutely NO idea of my distress. I was introduced to a local Newspaper Editor, who is doing an article on the Organization, as "!_______________! who does our website and pays all the bills. She really holds things together!"
I cannot take this 'double' life anymore. I want to feel, at home, how I feel when I am with these workmates, yet I don't want to become 'best friends' with any one of them.
Maybe I'll deveop a fatal ilness and then not have to worry, or maybe I have found the right Therapist--via Internet
"B____a's work is grounded in her philosophy that the symptoms we live with (depression, anxiety, low motivation, relationship difficulties, health problems, low self-esteem, overindulgence in alcohol, food, work, for example) are the remnants of coping mechanisms that we developed (usually early in life) to survive experiences that were unbearable, threatening, or that we lacked the necessary resources to understand. Her aim is to connect clients with the root of their problems and with their personal seeds of healing, strength, empowerment, wisdom, and wholeness.
To that end, Brenda uses interventions to help clients experience and live from the core of their authentic self - whomever that Self truly is! She draws on body-centred techniques such as imagery, focusing, Hakomi, movement, breath work, experiential exercises, as well as Gestalt, role plays, family mapping, journaling, and psychoeducation."
This reminds me of a lecture I attended when the speaker said that we are born who we are, then others (nurses, doctor, parents, then teachers and friends, then bosses and friends) have led us so far away from who we are that we spend the rest of our life trying to find out!
My mother also told me that after I was born, Dr. Scott came to see how she was then went out and drove off a bridge and killed himself. I thiink this was more information than I needed!
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Love to all
Izzy