Voicelessness and Emotional Survival Message Board
Voicelessness and Emotional Survival => Voicelessness and Emotional Survival Message Board => Topic started by: lighter on August 05, 2007, 12:33:49 AM
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Once you feel you really really realllllly really really have it licked..... it's sure to come back to bite you in some unexpected way: /
At least I'm having lots of strong happy times with my children right now.
Counting blessings and not worrying about the little things.
There were times I didn't think I'd ever be happy again, and yet, here it is.
Hello happiness.
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and yet, here it is.
Because here YOU are :)
I feel very happy thinking of you and your children, Lighter.
Your family.
Hops
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I can't believe I have no problems and am starting to make- gasp- decisions!
Actual real ones where I way up what's best for me and my family....
I enjoy my son more now there's less trauma too.
We're going to get a kitten or kittens when I move.
Love
~W
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Ahhhhh Write and Hops...
I'm not quite ready for a kitten or pet yet but.....
I'm thinking with less confusion and enjoying more reality.
Enjoy that kitten with your son, Write.
::going out to the beach to build sandcastles with children::
Joy, lol.
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Lighter,
You got a sieve?
There's something restful and satisfying about letting that fine sand run through one of those things...leaving behind the shells and pebbles...
Enjoy ((((()))))
Love,
Hope
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: ) Hope.
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:whispering - sorry for interrupting (and for borrowing light's writing style which is so enjoyable to read!):
WRITE - don't know if you were planning to go to a local shelter - just wanted to warn you to be careful. 2 weeks ago, my daughters convinced us to get them some kitties (still not sure how this happened other than there was some talk of wanting rodents of some sort). We went to the local shelter, and they picked out 2 beautiful babies.
Turns out those 2 little kitties were very, very sick. Almost lost them. First they vet prescribed some disgusting pink liquid medicine that I had to squirt in their mouths, which caused them to foam at the mouth and leave copious amounts of pink-tinged kitty spit all over the floor, so they switched them to the pill form of this medicine, which I had to toss down their throats all the while holding their mouths open (poor kitties), then they needed eye medicine, then they got sick on the first medicine and we had to switch to another medicine, one of them refused to eat so we had to get prescription food that I had to force her to eat every 2 hours or so (and if you have ever tried to coat the roof of a cat's mouth with smelly, slimy cat food - you will know it has not been an easy couple of weeks for me or the poor kitty).....in total, those 2 little kitties cost us almost $1000.00 in 2 weeks (and we still need to have them inoculated and fixed).
They are now doing great, which is a miracle as the vet thought that they were not going to make it.
It wasn’t the shelter’s fault, they are doing the best they can, but they have no money for routine vet checks. They also keep all the cats together, so disease is rampant (found that out a little late).
I don’t know if you have any PetSmart pet stores where you are, but they sponsor pet adoptions. The cats are vet checked, inoculated, fixed, and fostered in homes (rather than a shelter) so the risk of disease is far less, and you can get an idea of the temperament of the cat before you bring it home.
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Lighter – I am so glad (for you and your kids) that you are able to find those happy moments and can count your blessings in the midst of the Nmadness (not an easy thing to do).
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::wondering what happened to that Stephen King Pet Cemetary looking gray cat with one ear and a big facial scar:::
He was the only wild cat I couldn't trap in our neighborhood.
I haven't seen him lately but you have me wondering what became of him.
He fathered most of the wild kitties, many born in my crawlspace....
Ahhhh..... the sweet sweet smell of cat urine when the heat kicked on.
MMMMm......
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Pretty brave to trap them - feral cats can be pretty nasty
Eau de cat ureene - lovely scent to permeate the home. Did it ever go away (that smell can last forever)?
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It did go away.... then it came back.
My neighbor was lamenting that her big fluffy white kitty ran away..... .and it hurt her heart.
I recalled that BWFK liked to hang out in my backyard.....
and that eue de catinkle was just about in the air the day before, lol.
Sure enough.... the little....errrr... darling was blinking at me when I went searching, again, for kitties under the house.
She wouldn't come to me so I lured her out with food and water.
Before I could close the door to the crawl.... she ran back IN!
::sigh:: She'd been under there for 3 days without food or water..... and she didn't want to leave.
I got something really tasty and lured her back out again.... this time I knew she was quick and not weak and motivated to pee under my house: /
Must be some prime kitty peeing space down there.
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(((((((((((((((((((Lighter))))))))))))))))))
Yes, the roller coaster... I always think I am done... that I "get" it all and then, somehow, I hit one of those dips again. LOL. It's like Lupita asking Ami how you can understand things but not apply them to your own life. We mostly get it... and we change as we can.
Love, Beth
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I've been so up and happy lately.
NC has been a balm and taken pressure off me I didn't even know was there...... after all this time.
I realize I don't have to be subject to tyrany AND fear.
Just fear, lol....::Nodding cheerfully::
I choose not to live with it daily.
I re-visit it so I can tweek my life accordingly.
I plan as best I can then try to be a good mother and enjoy my life.
I'm not saying things don't come up, they do but....... it won't rob me of living every day.
Even if the worst happens..... I'll have enjoyed my life and not died a little every day.
I napped by the ocean again yesterday.
It was so peaceful and enjoyable and reminded me...... there's more of this to come: )
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What a terribly long exile Shunned. ((((you))))
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My Dearest Lighter!
This is so true and so important! It certainly helps to know that the roller coaster phenomenon is a natural cycle, especially when it feels like there is no going up, and you have done something WRONG to cause it ( so deserve it). To relish the good without fear or restraint- that is energizing, freeing, and joyous...I had forgotten what it was like to relax and enjoy things! Thank you for this thread!
Hugs,
Changing
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Yup yup yup changing....
It ebs and flows.
I know it's going to be OK..... no matter what.
My mantra...... without thinking..... has been "it's Ok, it's OK'
Even when I couldn't feel it would be OK.
I've just been there so many times.... and always come out.
The happiness will come again.
I'm always amazed that I feel joy to be alive again.
I trust it and the bad times have made the relief and pleasent times that much sweeter.
HOW ARE YOU DOING CHANGER?!??!
You're back, lol!
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Lighter!
Your wisdom and sly humor are a real "soul tonic"!
Hugs!!!!
Changing
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It's ironic humor, lol!
IRONIC!
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I think life is teaching us that as we heal we can still pull ourselves back to happiness... when we're reminded, or tricked, or hurt again. This is important to me, because it seemed between 1969 and 2007 - I didn't have a clue what happiness felt like; I even prevented myself from feeling it - so "someone" (who else? my mom) wouldn't come along and ruin
Dear Shunned,
I have been doing this since age 14. I have not let myself be happy for some reason(and i don't realy know the reason). I just know that I have been doing it.I guess it feels "wrong" somehow to be happy. It feels like I am betraying my M somehow . Maybe,it is the 'fear " that she will come and take it away( even though she is not physically here).
I would love to hear more about this. Maybe, I will start a thread . Thanks for expressing it, Shunned
Love Ami
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Hi lighter
Happy Happiness to you.
Are things really going well and no complaints? Great!
Me too and I feel surreal
now my sister says that I ought to write a book.
Love
Izzy
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Well Light - if I had to coax a BWFK out of a urine saturated crawl space with something really tasty that a cat likes (which no doubt smelled to high heaven) I would most likely have been replacing the Fluffy in BWFK with some more imaginative F-words!
I am so glad you are able to pull out of the lows and find the happiness. Your "IRONIC" humor is a soul tonic (I can't tell you how many times I have had to wipe coffee off my computer screen after reading some of your posts - thanks!).
Peace
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Well, Finding Peace, lol..... have an extra keyboard around.... for on accounta ya just never know when the coffee will muck it up to the point it refuses to work anymore, lol.
I've gone through 3 so far.... and it's always a chore since not all work with the computer you have: /
A really good sense of humor, coffee and a computer aren't a very good combo :shock:
Izzy... yes.
Things really are going well.
I have some things going very well in my life right now.
I can see the light at the end of the tunnel....
the bad new is..... I'm an eternal optimist so the tunnel may be longer than I can wrap my mind around: /