Voicelessness and Emotional Survival Message Board
Voicelessness and Emotional Survival => Voicelessness and Emotional Survival Message Board => Topic started by: Pauoa on August 07, 2007, 02:17:24 PM
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Well here goes, I joined this board as a way to start telling my feelings or finally admitting my feelings.
I am depressed and I have been for a long long time. I am unable to discuss this with any of my friends. The words float up and I get near to telling my friends I'm depressed and sad and I feel like I'm going to cry and I just clamp down. I dont know why or how I got to a place that is so isolating and fearful. I dont know why I am unable to talk about this with others. I feel like I have a deep wound inside me and if I tap into it - it will produce a deep moan with in my self that I will be unable to stop.
I'm hoping that this world will be my first step in creating a story for me, a way to learn how to talk and describe my depression.
Take care - Pauoa
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Welcome Pauoa,
Do you want to tell us more about your depression and its roots so we can help you? It is hard to help if we don't know why you are hurting. All of us here have heard and experienced awful things, so you can't shock or scare us.
(((((((((((((((((((((((((Pauoa))))))))))))))))))))
Love, Beth
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Dear Friend,
Welcome, I echo Beth's sentiment .Please talk to us in more detail so we can share our own lives and feelings in a way that will, hopefully, help you . I am glad that you reached out. It is the first step in healing Love Ami
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Hi Pauoa,
Welcome hon..
Sometimes the slide into that place is so subtle that you don't even feel yourself slipping until it is too late.I have been there is that darkness and I know that fear and pain. Use this place first as a lamp to help you light the darkness and to allow you to see a little more, and then as your ladder.. You will find many hands here stretched out to you waiting to help you out..
Keep posting sweetie we're listening
Spyralle
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Dear Pauoa,
Welcome to this board. You can start talking when you're ready, not even starting at 'the beginning' if you need to...we are used the feeling of being a bit overwhelmed at first with all the thoughts that come up when you try to put it all into words. There are lots of people here willing to listen to you, and to offer help if you want that, or just empathise if that's what you need right now.
So many people here have been through hell, but this board is brilliant for helping people move forwrads.
Janet
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Pauoa,
Hiya!
Nice to meet you. Just wanted to give you a wave.
Love
Deb
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Hi Pauoa,
I am sorry you have so much pain - I know the fear of being overwhelmed if you let even a little out.
When you are ready, I will listen.
Take care,
Peace
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Welcome, Pauoa,
How long have you felt this sad? What was happening in your life when it started?
I'm glad you found us. And have you found a therapist?
Nobody should sit with that much pain alone.
love
Hopalong
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Welcom Pauoa,
(http://www.slrkelowna.ca/rose2.gif)
I am sorry to hear about this weird depression of yours.
I know what you mean about trying to get ready to tell someone and then you just can't. I've been there.
I might be the oldest person on this Board, 68, and depression has been with me for a long, long time.
I am so much better now with medication.......Are you on medication? It really hekps, when the right one for you is found.
I think many people don't want to hear us whine about our sorry state in life, so we say nothing.
And I have found that once I knew why I was depressed and faced it with a therapist (and meds) I am SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much better and I told my brother and sister on the weekend, the real truth of my problem. (They are 65 and 67, so I didn't expect they would beat me up or anything!)
Hang in and talking helps
Izzy
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Welcome P.
Talk about your feelings and see if things don't get clearer for you.
Talking and writing always help me see things more clearly: )
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Hello Pauoa,
I'm willing to walk with you.
Glad to have you here. Warm greetings. :)
tt
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I remember being depressed and my mom wanted me to snap out of it. It is not something to snap out of. My doc recommended 5 HTP which is a supplement. It could not hurt. Depression seems to pass but it is awful and I feel for you! Tell up about it. Does it have to do with a narcissist Spouse or parent or boss?
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hi there,
welcome....i'm new here too. this is a good board. i hope you find the solace, comfort, and wisdom you are seeking here.
nmmg
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I just read your 2nd post thanking those who responded to this - your first post. Somehow I missed this one. I do hope you will try to express your pain. One of the wonderful things about the internet in general and this place in particular is that you have a wonderful shield of anonymity. I hope it will give you freedom to share here.
I experienced very severe depression several years ago. I finally got a prescription for anti-depressants. Up until that time I avoided medications unless absolutely necessary. I didn't take asperin nor anti-biotics (except when hospitalized for a cat bite). But I am very, very thankful that I took those anti-depressants. I took them for several years and would get off and then find myselff slipping into depression during the winter. I have now been unmedicated and depression free for sometime.
One thing that really helps is eating more protein, less carbohydrates and cut down on or eliminate alcohol. another thing that really helps is aerobic exercise. Then, to the extent that you can do it, surround yourself with uplifting music, pictures, stories. Look for all that is right in the world. It actually effects the brain positively.
Here's a fantastic visual story from YouTube that was on TV last night - The Battle at Kruger. Despite the description that it is a battle between lions and other beasts over a baby water buffalo the outcome is profoundly touching.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LU8DDYz68kM
So glad you are here. I pray you find what you are looking for and that you find relief soon. - Gaining Strength