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Voicelessness and Emotional Survival => Voicelessness and Emotional Survival Message Board => Topic started by: axa on December 13, 2007, 12:04:19 PM

Title: My beautiful girl
Post by: axa on December 13, 2007, 12:04:19 PM
Today is the fifth anniversary of my daughter's death.  I want acknowledge my missing and loving of her here amongst friends.  I want to share how blessed I was to have such a beautiful, wise and loving girl in my life.  I want to say I miss the sound of her voice, I cannot remember it any longer, I miss her smell, her sassy mouth, her unbelievable compassion and her black, black humour.

Today is hard.


Axa
Title: Re: My beautiful girl
Post by: Hopalong on December 13, 2007, 12:11:45 PM
((((((((((((((((Axa)))))))))))))))))))

rocking, rocking ... tears ... you MUST have a hug today.
How do we find you a hug? (Maybe I'm projecting. I want to hug you.)

Bless you and bless her, all day and always.

And when the funny memories get to the surface,
I would be overjoyed to hear about her  :twisted:  humor ...

Black humor 'R US!

God, I love kids. Especially wry mouthy philosophical kids.

Like yours. I'm smiling just to think of her saying things so funny + bad
that you can't decide which one wins, but your lifeforce says LAUGH.

What a GIFT she was. I am so glad she was your child. She knew how
absurd life is, how ridiculous to be human, and took her ticket and took her ride...

love love love
Hops
Title: Re: My beautiful girl
Post by: tayana on December 13, 2007, 12:14:46 PM
Oh Axa, (((((((((hugs))))))))).

I don't know what else to say.
Title: Re: My beautiful girl
Post by: lighter on December 13, 2007, 01:39:19 PM
(((Axa missing her child)))

I'd love to hear stories about her, if you're feeling like sharing.....

always interested in the black humor too, Axa.

I'm just so sorry it hurts so much (((Axa)))


Title: Re: My beautiful girl
Post by: Ami on December 13, 2007, 01:41:35 PM
I am so sorry Axa. Only a M who lost a child could truly understand,I am sure. My heart goes out to you, dear.I am so very,very sorry.
                              Love   Ami


((((((((((((Axa))))))))))))))))))))
Title: Re: My beautiful girl
Post by: teartracks on December 13, 2007, 01:43:28 PM


((((((((((((axa))))))))))))
Title: Re: My beautiful girl
Post by: changing on December 13, 2007, 01:43:50 PM
My Dear Axa-

I am thinking of your and your beautiful daughter today. (((((((Axa and daughter)))))))

Love,

Changing
Title: Re: My beautiful girl
Post by: Leah on December 13, 2007, 05:07:00 PM
Dear ((((( Axa and your precious gift from up above, your forever Angel ))))))

Thinking of you and the laughter and joy you shared together.

Cherished memories locked safety into your heart, written for always.

Love to you,

Leah

Title: Re: My beautiful girl
Post by: finding peace on December 13, 2007, 05:32:55 PM
((((((((((((((((((((((Axa)))))))))))))))))))))))))

 :cry:

Gentle hugs for you today. 

Peace
Title: Re: My beautiful girl
Post by: axa on December 13, 2007, 07:40:35 PM
Thank you all for your hugs......... they do cross cyberspace. 

I did some good things today.  Went to meditation for an hour at 7 this morning...... peaceful and gentle.

Went on a roller coaster........scary for me, but she loved them......... she owes me Big Time!!!!!

Had lunch with some college friends

Made dinner for some other friends.

Lovely phone call from my son

Lovely phone call from her Dad - (not XN)

Shed tears, feel grateful for her, you, me.

Hope I sleep tonight. - tomorrow is another anniversary, I will post that tomorrow.

axa
Title: Re: My beautiful girl
Post by: lighter on December 13, 2007, 07:44:34 PM
I loved that you celebrated her life and spirit, Axa.

Dinner with friends.... a quiet discussion with her father.... meditation.

::looking forward to tomorrow's story::

Sleep well, ((Axa))
Title: Re: My beautiful girl
Post by: CB123 on December 13, 2007, 08:17:57 PM
Axa,

I'm so encouraged by the way you remembered this day with friends and meaningful activities.  Yours is a beautiful grief, if that makes sense. 

I am thinking of you this evening, as the day winds to a close.  Hold your sweet one close in your memory.

Much love,

CB
Title: Re: My beautiful girl
Post by: seasons on December 13, 2007, 08:22:14 PM
((axa))

Loving thoughts of you today, your special loving day in honor of your beautiful daughter always and forever.
Thank you for sharing your day, I've never heard of such a lovely celebration of one so loved. oxox seasons
Title: Re: My beautiful girl
Post by: gratitude28 on December 13, 2007, 08:36:30 PM
(((((((((((((((((((((Axa)))))))))))))))))))))

I am so sorry for your loss still. I cannot imagine losing a child. Know that she is looking upon you with love and sweetness and misses you too. Try to believe that in spite of the separation, you were blessed to have had her with you. I know it must have been tremendously hard to go through her death.

I send you love and warm thoughts to make it through this time.

Love, Beth
Title: Re: My beautiful girl
Post by: Hopalong on December 13, 2007, 09:47:43 PM
You're doing her proud, Axa.

love,
Hops
Title: Re: My beautiful girl
Post by: changing on December 13, 2007, 10:57:32 PM
Dear Axa-

Sleep well- your continued love and devotion to your beautiful daughter is a sacred thing, and I am sure that her brother and father are helped and encouraged by it. Bless you ((((((((((Axa and daughter))))))))))

Love,

Changing
Title: Re: My beautiful girl
Post by: axa on December 14, 2007, 08:24:31 AM
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

axa
Title: Re: My beautiful girl
Post by: Ami on December 14, 2007, 08:32:36 AM
Thinking of you, Axa, and sending love to you.                     Ami

((((((((((((((Axa))))))))))))))))
Title: Re: My beautiful girl
Post by: axa on December 14, 2007, 12:41:19 PM
thanks to everyone for their hugs and kind wishes


axa
Title: Re: My beautiful girl
Post by: cats paw on December 14, 2007, 05:06:34 PM
Axa,

  What a lovely commemorative for your dear girl.

cats paw
Title: Re: My beautiful girl
Post by: axa on December 14, 2007, 06:20:25 PM
And thank you for your acknowledgement

x

axa