Voicelessness and Emotional Survival Message Board
Voicelessness and Emotional Survival => Voicelessness and Emotional Survival Message Board => Topic started by: axa on December 14, 2007, 08:37:03 AM
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Lets pop the champagne and dance................... today is my first anniversary from XN and I wanna sing BORN FREE La la la la laaaa la
To celebrate I went for an early morning face and neck massage.........so lovely and what a treat.
Oh guys, little did I think this time last year that so much has happened in the year. Can I bore you guys with my list AGAIN. I want to see it in print and share it with you. Axa is a happy bunny.
Ok, before I dumped psychoN I was depressed, scared, no confidence, unemployed, thinking I was heading for the psych ward, smoking like a trooper, using wine to medicate the pain, isolated........... I could just go on and on.
Today I feel content, grounded, dare I say kinda happy, easy with myself. This changes at times, I go through difficult times but 90% of the time I feel GOOD
For the Newbies
Since I left him (I thought I would die with his "love"and would not be able to manage anything) I
Travelled half way round the world for a trip in India
Took part in a half marathon ( I am a couch potato)
Made a collection of paintings
Left my home and community
Moved to a new city
Cashed in my savings plan and went back to university for a post grad degree
Learned how to take of myself - sometimes I am very good - sometimes I am very bad
Stayed away from Ns
Confronted people - well does 2 count - who I felt were being abusive to me and did not did not rescue them when they started the games
Live alone - happily
Learned to drive in a busy city
Made new friends
confronted my "you are not good enough demons" and submitted my first paper on time
Learned that I love learning
Dream of doing a phd
Dream of having a tiny house in Italy
Dream of speaking Italian
Don't know where I am going other than completing this year at university but I trust all will be revieled
Have no desire to be in a relationship - first time ever!
Like me, sometimes even love me
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AXA
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axa,
Wow! What a list of achievements!
Well done!!
Janet
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Thank you Janet, I do feel a little smug today but no doubt life will hit me in the rear end as usual and I will come down to earth but enjoying this bit. I bloody deserve it!
axa
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You are an inspiration, Axa. Well done, friend !! Ami
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Amazing journey, Axa.
Thanks for going over the list.... truly inspiring for the rest of us.
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What a wonderful list of accomplishments, Axa! Good for you! It's very inspiring.
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Dear Axa,
Thank you so much for sharing your accomplishments and aspirations.
Inspirational
Uplifting
Breathes true Hope
Love, Leah
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Axa,
Celebrating your one year with you, plus your happiness and accomplishments. I'm really glad you listed this again, plus your new accomplishments. I was going to search your previous posts the other day for your first listing because I was needing some inspiration, so I'm really glad to see your posts !
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