Voicelessness and Emotional Survival Message Board
Voicelessness and Emotional Survival => Voicelessness and Emotional Survival Message Board => Topic started by: Izzy_*now* on January 13, 2008, 03:21:03 PM
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Hello all you beautiful people!
I finally see it and now believe it. Different of my friends here are saying how much I have changed since I came on board, and for the better. I didn’t see it but never said so.
Something like this might take someone else less time or more time, but I just had to wait for the right time for it to be in my head and me to know it will stay.
In my young life I made many mistakes, from lack of knowing the hows and whys and whens and wheres. This problem followed me through many years of my adulthood, and yes, experience is the best teacher, for me, along with supportive people which I never found until here.
So I have come to terms with all my mistakes and don’t see them as such, as much, and can finally forgive myself for being ignorant of facts. I knew all the while that G_d forgave me . But I had to sense it, feel it, know it, in my own head to know I believe it now.
I called upon my family for assistance and not much was forthcoming, except for the N sister. She lambasted me, as usual, in her own cruel way, but I remember not believing one awful thing she said to me, as that was not me and I knew it. I never fell to pieces in despair that she could say those things. I realize now she was into projection. (I learned that here over time.)
I called upon my daughter for some deep conversations and a few more things fell into place. I realized that people will have different memories of the same incident, and believe their own memories. Healing does not take place overnight, but the realization that I have been healing all along did take place over night. Last night.
There is much more I could say, but I want to thank the people on board who have believed in me all along, when I couldn’t see straight. I thank even those who are still posting with huge problems, as their problems are no longer mine, but might have been.
I realize if something is bugging me, I have a right ( I never knew my rights until I came here) to point it out and what peace there is in that. It could be something that bugs me alone, or something that bugs a lot of people, but assertiveness is something I needed all my life and have only learned in the last year (here).
There are many wonderful people in this world and my hope is that it is only the wonderful ones that I meet in real life. I was shopping yesterday at Safeway, which is just down the block. I don’t have a store card as I usually shop elsewhere which has much lower prices. But Safeway is handy for my broken leg. The girl behind me offered her store card for my purchases and that saved me quite a bit, and in turn she was given my air miles as I don’t save them. Just like that! From a stranger! A Trade!
I am not saying that troubles won’t arise, or that someone won’t p*ss me off, still but I have a better handle on how to handle it. The thing is, I know this just for me and my almost 69 years of living, not something that will change the whole world.
Thanks again, my good friends
Love
Izzy
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Dear Izzy
That's life! And you have it!
Tears of real joy as I read your every word, twice.
Truly, so very very deeply happy for you, dear friend.
May G-d continue to bless you with His Love, Peace & deep Joy.
Love to you,
Leah
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ahhhh Dear IzzzzzzyyyBelle :D How Sweet It Is!! :D
Love to you, with hugs,
Carolyn
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Thank you Leah and Hope
You are 2 of my favourite people and I want to thank you Leah for the 'Intrusiveness' post..... It is filled with great discoveries!
I will send you a Rainbow, a special one with the Rainbow's end. (Click to enlarge.)
Love
Izzy
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Oh Izzy
Your words mean so much, truly.
And, I love Rainbows, as you may have guessed, and hold hope in my heart for my very own Rainbows end.
Thank you for sending me, a special one, which I intend to enlarge, print out, and keep as a keepsake.
I now have tears falling, of real joy.
My love to you,
Leah
G-d bless you.
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Izzy,
you are an inspiration.
xxxxxxxxxxx axa
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I wish I could give you a real hug, Izzy :D
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Thank you axa and lighter
Two more of my favourite people
It feels so good to have put the past behind me and....
Hugs to you both
Love
Izzy
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aww (((((((((((((Izzy))))))))))))) You have always been one of my favourite people, too!
and I sure do like the pot at the end of that rainbow!! :mrgreen:
Love to you,
Carolyn
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YVW and you're one of my favorite people too.
::raising glass to the future::
To leaving the past behind: )
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Izzy Mizzy Izzy,
I am so happy for you about you and because of you.
Thank you for being yourself. Nothing more and nothing else.
love you,
Hops
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Hops,
Are you doing okay? Is he still there?
I didn't want to call you out on a separate blazing thread, but was wondering... and hoping you're breathing easier.
Love,
Carolyn
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Thank you hops
...another of my favourite people who always believed in me
Did you get impatient for me to see the light?--that I was just human?
I send you a little bunny friend to hop into your life and give you a little hug
Love Izzy
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regarding a safe place to hide, I have no problem with your using this space at all. I was going to ask who 'he' was (forgetting about your Nbro.) You seem to have your plan of action all settled, so all the best to you in dealiing with him
Love
Izzy (again)
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Thanks for the bunny, honey!
(I started a thread anyway, moved it over there...)
I should've known you'd share your space.
love you,
Hops
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Sew I C
xx
Iz
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Whoops... guess I'd better clean my glasses....
going huntin fer Hops... following the bunny raisinettes oughtta lead me straight to her! :D
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Hope
Oh so cute!
Bunny raisinettes, strewn from one thread to another--make a necklace?
xx
Izzy
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lol
((((((Iz)))))) Not makin a pie, that's for sure!
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:lol: Bunny raisinettes, strewn from one thread to another--make a necklace? :lol:
((( Izzy ))) and ((( Carolyn )))
Goodnight to you both.
Céad míle fáilte
Love, Leah
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Iz,
You hold a special place in my heart. Think of all the 'stuff', the humor, the good and the bad and it's just been a year! Let's look ahead together, there's so much more to come!
Hugging you tight....
tt
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oh Thank you, tt
Yes, it has just been a year on here, the best possible place to open up about the good and bad, after spending sooooo many years trying to put it all together on my own.
And, yes a new year to come. You are one of the best too. The best meaning the so very kind ones, yet still have the courage to speak their minds in a non-aggressive way. Love it!!
hugging you back
Izzy
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I think that something clicks in us as we travel on our spiritual journey and every once in awhile we realize that we have turned a corner and things are getting better. [I have no idea why I wrote that. It just came off my fingertips, but I will leave it in, anyway.]
Spooky,
That arrived this evening in an email from my sister 2000 miles away.
Isn't that something?
Izzy