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Voicelessness and Emotional Survival => Voicelessness and Emotional Survival Message Board => Topic started by: towrite on April 02, 2008, 05:45:32 PM

Title: Ann3
Post by: towrite on April 02, 2008, 05:45:32 PM

Hi Ann - I am on the board so erratically that I don't know much about you but would like to. Can you share some of your story?

towrite

Title: Re: Ann3
Post by: ann3 on April 02, 2008, 05:59:02 PM

Hi Towrite,

I really should find my post where I kind of tell my story.  I'm not too great about talking about myself.  Found out about 3-4 years ago that my parents were Ns.  Married and divorced an N. 

I feel like my life, prior to discovering Narcisscim, was an illusion.  Turns out my parents were very controlling, but I never knew that, I thought whatever they did for and to me was because they 'loved' me, at least that's what they told me.  "We're screaming at you, punishing you, hitting you for your own good, because we care".  yucck!!

I'm going to start doing EMBR therapy with a therapist.  EMBR therapy is a new(ish) therapy to heal trauma.  Hopefully, the EMBR will re-program my brain.  I'll let the Board know how it goes and if it works.

I guess I don't want to go into all my nitty gritty details because I don't want to re-live my traumas.  Writing about my past gives me headaches and anxiety and I'm trying so hard to live in the present and be thankful for what I do have in the here and now.

w/ love,
ann

Title: Re: Ann3
Post by: towrite on April 03, 2008, 10:31:02 AM

I know exactly what you mean about writing. That's why my visits here are so erratic, which I apologize for, but it's the best I can do. Sometimes I have moments of peace and writing about all the pain of the past just stirs it all up again. And I can use all the peace I can find right now - or always.

Thanks for answering. Sending you some cyber-balm for the pain.

towrite