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Voicelessness and Emotional Survival => Voicelessness and Emotional Survival Message Board => Topic started by: lighter on April 22, 2008, 09:40:15 PM
Title: Overcomer
Post by: lighter on April 22, 2008, 09:40:15 PM
When my children were given very bad news..... they curled into little balls and were pretending to sleep.
After a little while.... they were told to "wake up! wake up!" They uncurled and re awakened.
It was wonderful though they continue to grieve and deal with their loss.... they always will.
Healing takes a lifetime.
You're learning to accept your reality.... it's so painful it's almost impossible to face without turning away and hoping in your mother's direction, now and again.
(((Overcomer))) I'm so sorry you're going through this bc you surely deserved a loving mother who valued the lovely little girl you were.
You still deserve a loving mother daughter relationship..... it's unfair that she'll never be capable of gifting that to you.
She can't.... or she would.
I hope you find nurturing fulfilling relationships to fill that void..... you're so worthy.
Title: Re: Overcomer
Post by: Overcomer on April 22, 2008, 10:19:12 PM
Tears flowing down my cheeks-trying to not be discovered by my H. Hoping my job interview goes well tomorrow and he can see past my middle age and my thick middle! Thank you Lighter!
Title: Re: Overcomer
Post by: lighter on April 22, 2008, 10:26:27 PM
Remember.... people want to like you.
When you feel good..... people sense that.
Your life is before you.... time to embrace it fresh and new..... begin again.
Job hunting is simply opening new doors and walking through them.
Even the ones that don't seem to go your way may introduce someone new.... something worthy into your life.
This is your adventure.
Embrace it and see what tomorrow brings.
::waiting for your update::
Title: Re: Overcomer
Post by: debkor on April 22, 2008, 10:28:29 PM
Oh Kelly I have seen your pic you posted here and you are beautiful. He would be lucky to hire someone like you. I'm rooting for you with the job GOOD LUCK!!
Love Deb
Title: Re: Overcomer
Post by: Overcomer on April 23, 2008, 07:27:13 AM
Thank you Deb! I know when I went to my restaurant interview I must not have impressed them at all! No call-nothing! I was old enough to be their mother and had more experience than the two of them put together! I felt like I was at the fraternity for a job interview! But every time I go to a job interview it is like I get resuscitated! Today whether I get the job or not-I will be taking those steps needed for independence! That is what it is-the quest for myself apart from my mom!
Title: Re: Overcomer
Post by: Hopalong on April 23, 2008, 07:30:48 AM
ENJOY your interview, Kel!
Take them your most hopeful and positive self!
(They don't know anything about your inner struggles...they will encounter just the happy, independent woman you are bringing to the surface. Strong, hardworking, and full of energy to contribute.)
Love and luck, Hops
Title: Re: Overcomer
Post by: Overcomer on April 23, 2008, 08:00:48 AM
Thanks again! My I was afraid I would walk in there and start acting desperate! No I am a pretty good actor so I will say only positive things!
Title: Re: Overcomer
Post by: Hopalong on April 23, 2008, 08:09:32 AM
And tune into the REALITY of what's positive. It's there.
You are bringing a lot of positive energy...let the negative just flow out behind you and leave it behind for today.
You're facing forward, and that's a good direction.
You'll do great. I know it.
xo Hops
Title: Re: Overcomer
Post by: Overcomer on April 23, 2008, 06:24:15 PM
Well I went to the interview and I feel it went great! I was articulate and seemed to fit all of the needs of the position! I would work Monday and friday at the store and be out and about Tues wed and thurs. One sat a month and no sun. We did not talk specifics about pay but if it is the same or more I will be there! Maybe this is Gods way of releasing me and rewarding me for the years of anxiety!
Title: Re: Overcomer
Post by: Leah on April 23, 2008, 06:31:44 PM
Kelly, I am so very glad to know that all went well, I feel sure that there are many praying for you. Leah x
Title: Re: Overcomer
Post by: Overcomer on April 23, 2008, 06:38:15 PM
Boy thanks! I am so psyched about the possibility! Then I started thinking big-like what if I could make 100k? That would be great!
Title: Re: Overcomer
Post by: lighter on April 23, 2008, 07:23:11 PM
Lovely post, Overcomer! One good feeling leads to another..... remember how this feels: )
Lighter
Title: Re: Overcomer
Post by: Overcomer on April 23, 2008, 07:43:41 PM
Yea! I am getting there! I would be so good at this job. So many jobs expect 55 Hours per week! I have kids and need a good work and life balance! This seems so perfect!
Title: Re: Overcomer
Post by: lighter on April 23, 2008, 07:47:13 PM
Our children are only children once.
It's absolutely the most important investment we'll ever make.
Good luck finding balance in your life.
Good luck to us all: )
Title: Re: Overcomer
Post by: Ami on April 23, 2008, 07:48:35 PM
Kelly You sound the happiest ever. You deserve it. You have had this part of your life dominated by an NM. I am rooting for you, Kelly. Love Ami
Title: Re: Overcomer
Post by: debkor on April 23, 2008, 08:13:14 PM
I'm feelin' good from my head to my shoes Know where I'm goin' and I know what to do I tidied up my point of view I got a new attitude
Could have not said it better or sang it better then Patti LaBelle,
HERE IS TO YOU KELLY GIRL
love Deb
Title: Re: Overcomer
Post by: Overcomer on April 23, 2008, 08:17:53 PM
I am rooting for me too! Today I was praying LORD LET ME KEEP THE RIGHT ATTITUDE! I do not want to be vindictive or mean to my mom. I just want to be free from her constant disapproval and manipulation. I hope I get this job because if not I will be back to square one! But I am hopeful. He asked me some of those canned questions like NAME A TIME WHEN YOU HAD TO CORRECT AN EMPLOYEE! I hate those types but I think I did ok. The bookkeeper told me if I leave she will leave even if no job!
Title: Re: Overcomer
Post by: Overcomer on April 23, 2008, 08:19:39 PM
And then she told me I am the ONLY sane one in the place!
Title: Re: Overcomer
Post by: lighter on April 23, 2008, 08:32:55 PM
It's nice when someone, you consider sane, validates your sanity: )
Title: Re: Overcomer
Post by: Izzy_*now* on April 23, 2008, 08:35:17 PM
Hiya Deb and OC
I saw those words Deb and it made me think of a song I wrote in the early '90s
I'M FIN'LY OVER YOU 1.) I woke up this mornin' hopped out of bed, Had a shot of caffeine to clear my head. Sun was shinin' brighter, skies were bluer than blue. This had to be the day I was over you.
CHORUS This is the day I'm Fin'ly Over You. From here on I'll fly at a new altitude Tomorrow I'm lookin' for somebody new. This is the day I'm Finaly Over You.
2.(verse is doubled) Drove off to work feelin' free as the wind. Hit every green light again and again Had a funny feelin' eve'rything was goin' my way. Holy hoppin' hot Damn I got a raise in pay Came home at night with a new attitude. lookin' at love from a new point of view. A weight had been lifted, it had to be true. This was the day. I was over you.
CHORUS
3.) Head hit the pillow I sighed with relief. Knew there'd be no problem fallin' to sleep Wouldn't even dream about you and me. I'm over you; my heart is finaly free.
CHORUS
TAG Yes! This is the day I'm Finaly Over You.
Title: Re: Overcomer
Post by: debkor on April 23, 2008, 08:46:56 PM
Iz,
I think you may just have a HIT there. What are you going to do with it?
Love Deb
Title: Re: Overcomer
Post by: Overcomer on April 23, 2008, 08:52:32 PM
Great lyrics Iz!
Title: Re: Overcomer
Post by: Izzy_*now* on April 23, 2008, 09:52:19 PM
Thank you Deb and OC
Times have changed so that no matter how good, brilliant, whatever the song is, a general lay person can go no where. I have written over 200 songs and I just sit on them.
One must have good demos (and I have quite a # of demos... $30,000.00 worth) but then I would have to pay an Indie group $100,000.00 to see if they can push the song. It's horrible, for the lowly writer. I know people far better than I am, and they can't go anywhere either. We just have a Lyric Forum and critique each others songs.... just to try to make them better, just for ourselves, a word here, a phrase there, and we can chose to change or leave it the same.
The weird thing is, I wrote this regarding my daughter when I felt I could finally accept her never coming back. I made it a male vocal about a woman. I think that is obvious?
Some of my songs jut have to be female vocals.
Artistic license!!! xx Izzy
Title: Re: Overcomer
Post by: lighter on April 24, 2008, 06:02:34 AM
Izzy.... wasn't that "it starts in my toes then it wiggles my nose" singer discovered on U tube....