Voicelessness and Emotional Survival Message Board
Voicelessness and Emotional Survival => Voicelessness and Emotional Survival Message Board => Topic started by: phoenix on August 26, 2004, 10:18:41 AM
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Seeker, DG, BlueTopaz,
I am done here. I have erased all my posts- except for one.
And I think "Someone" is being very clever by signing off for good - just as I do. Oh well don't care, it's like after you are dead, who cares what people say or think.
Don't think I am being run off the board- I just am not that attached to it. I erased my posts for personal reasons.
I wish I could know you all under different circumstances. Like as a next door neighbor. Thank you for the things you shared with me.
DG , keep having yourself heard,even if you don't think others are listening. They are. You made a big impact on me.
Take care all, Phoenix
Hugs to you HUG&C, whoever you are!
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I'm sorry to see you go and wish you the best.
bunny
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Hmmmm.....this all sounds pretty desperate stuff, what's the problem Phoenix?
Onyx
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Hi Jennifer/ Phoenix,
I haven’t been reading any of the other threads where other stuff has been going on for awhile, so I don’t know if it still has been going on all of this time… I know you mentioned your leaving is not related.
I have to say that I’m very, very sorry to see you leave, as you are one of the people here that I relate to so much, on many levels. You are a special kind of person, and I have been inspired and motivated by your strength and insight. You’d be surprised what a few words on a page can do, when they are the exact right words for others, just at that time. It is just like you said re. CG, people are really “listening”….
Truthfully, I would hope that you would reconsider because it wouldn’t be the same without you here, but I would also respect your personal choice in wanting to do what you feel is best for yourself. I only hope so much that it has nothing to do with anything going on in other threads. You can step out of it any time (maybe you have) and just continue your participation in unrelated threads. When I stopped reading those threads (quite a bit back) it really became as though they didn’t exist. I was surprised, but one really can put them out of mind, no matter how :x and crazy making some content can be.
It may have nothing to do with the other stuff, but if it is even partially due to these things, please do not leave because of that... Just leave it behind as it is only a small energy niche at the corner of a big board with lots of other welcoming and caring energy going on...
At any rate, I have always detected an energy of strength and much wisdom around you, and I know you will be able to achieve your goals and move forward in your life with the new changes (moving, etc.), just the way you’d like to…
Like myself in the good old same boat here, I hope that you find employment that is a fit with your “personhood” very soon, and I wish you nothing but the very best in peace, and genuine happiness on your life’s journey…
Again, really very sorry to see you leave.... :( Maybe taking a small break might be good, and you will decide to return after a bit...
Hugs,
BT
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Me again.
I just wanted to reiterate that as David/Onyx mentions, if there happens to be something you would like to share with the group... we're listening!
BT
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Jennifer--
I'll be back postin' soon on this thread hun'-- Later tonight or tomorrow sweetheart--
Yer in my thoughts hun--
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Hi Phoenix,
Well, jeepers, I'm gonna miss you. Hope you're simply taking another break. Happy trails and we will be here (if? :( ) and when you return.
I just know things are going to get better for you. So hope you will check in. Bye for now, Seeker
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Your right Onyx- who needs this?
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or this! Thanks ! I'm gone. Love to my friends ,you know who you are.
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good luck phoenix.
I have to agree with everything you said here.
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Oh dear, someones not very happy :?
Before you toddle off Phoenix and throw your rattle even further out of the pram, think hard on this: We're all at different points in a recovery from an event(s) that stressed and tested us to our limits and for some, beyond! It doesn't really matter who on a site like this plays 'Victim, Rescuer or Persecuter roles. We all at some stage interchange and swop roles as we begin to repair outselves!
Our end goal should be to be free of the tread mill of living either one them. Not to be a Victim anymore because we won't allow ourselves to become on! Not to rush in where Angels fear to tread as a Rescuer! And not to Persecute the hell of people for their views and opinions. Come the day, we won't find ourselves having to force our wills upon others because of the damage inflicted upon us in our past lives :)
Years later, I'm much much stronger and can even laugh about most of my experience. In time Pheonix, we all let go of our pasts and start living our futures
It doesn't matter who's right or wrong or who thinks they know or even actually know :lol:. It doesn't matter Pheonix :D. Nine tenths of the time, I talk total shit.....and with a raging passion! How ridiculous is that? I wasn't a whole person and in not being so, I ran headlong into the quick sand of a Narcissist! I couldn't wantenly bury myself fast enough if I tried! In the aftermath of it all, I realised that there was something wrong with me too!
Well all meet smart asses in our lives....and yes they're are probably a number on here.....maybe even I'm one! Sure there are a number of NPDers on here who are playing the Victim role having been spurned by a wiser soul than us. But isn't that the fun part; being able to spot and play with them!! It kind of keeps our senses alert to what we might meet in our real lives and not cyber space :wink:
I've come to this site and said my peace. Some have replied, more have read and I'm happier for having articulated my thoughts, even if they're way wrong! Stick around and play your thoughts out somemore Phoenix! Remember, you don't have to be right, none of us do :) This is Cyber space, a place for you to simulate your thoughts. A place for you to see if they work and if they don't, ditch them before putting them into practice in your real life.
On here, we've all been damaged goods at some stage in our lives. Why deny us the ability to see you get better? Stick around Phoenix, we all have bad days honey :)
David
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Dear Onyx,
I can take no offense from anything you have said. I understand your point of view. Thank you for taking the time to reply.
This issue runs deeper though, than how you are seeing it. There is a history behind it, as well.
I spent some time deciding whether to post what I wrote, would it be of value to anyone? What the heck. For me it was an exercise in speaking my mind.
I've played all the thoughts out I want to here. I see no value in sticking around. I guess that's for me to decide.
Take care , Phoenix
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One question for you: Not specifically, but where abouts in the world do you reside?
David
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One question for you: Not specifically, but where abouts in the world do you reside?
David
Calilfornia, SF Bay Area.
While you are here, check out the above.
Oh yeah, and really, I am not unhappy. :D Phoenix
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Phoenix,
Thanks for sharing your dreams, and door symbolism and about your cat with us. I enjoyed your posts and support. You are cool. 8) I respect your decision, but will miss you, Phoenix with a capital P that I was getting to know.
flower
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Phoenix,
Thanks for sharing your dreams, and door symbolism and about your cat with us. I enjoyed your posts and support. You are cool. 8) I respect your decision, but will miss you, Phoenix with a capital P that I was getting to know.
flower
Ditto, flower, with metal petals 8) Phoenix
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Check out what...I'm not with you?
Anyway....the reason why I asked where abouts you're based is because I suspected that you were up and still burning the midnight oil so to speak. It's just gone 11am here in the UK, and yes it is a cloudy day once again and about to rain :o !
It's around 3am in the morning your time....and you've got things on your mind. Reading into this thread, you're not a happy bunny with a number of people on here. So much so, your mind isn't at rest and your still thumping the keyboard of 3 in the morning! From what I've read, your angry and pissed off!
Phoenix......what's said in anger (written in your case), is not really you! We all blow from time to time.....but it really isn't us! You've had a series of bad experiences.....but isn't this the forum to vent them? And if you don't, your going to need to vent elsewhere all over again. At least here, you won't have to start from scratch bringing people up to speed all over again :lol:
Remember as humans, we're all pains in the asses from time to time.....it's in a nature to be :wink:
David
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I see yer decision is final hun...
I'm gonna keep it all in yer name, love-- Always a dedication to ya and only materialisin' for "the cause"--
Why fools are endowed by nature with voices so much louder than sensible people possess is a mystery. It is a fact emphasized throughout history.
I'm dumfounded by it too, love. Maybe it ain't always need be just so :wink: I saw everythang you did in all that was transpirin', and you had the guttins to stand up for it, sweet--
I 'ain't worried about a gem like you Phoenix--- you'll fair like cherry blossoms-- Yer the lucky one with the smarts, prescious-- It 'ain't more that have it than don't got it love-- It's rare.
Don't approach a goat from the front, a horse from the back, or a fool from any side.
I'm respectin' yer decision to quit it Phoenix--
Hugs and big lovin' back atcha, sweet-- yer gonna have many grand things in life--
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Well, I was gone throughout most of yesterday and I missed your posts -- I guess you deleted the Onyx exchange on this thread. Well, anyhow, I will say this to you Phoenix -- I am sure going to miss you and looking for posts with your name on them.
Thank you for your kind comments to me and your understanding.
I think you chose a wonderful name for yourself on here. Phoenix ... you are not sad, I know -- you are strong, I know -- you are a survivor, I know -- and you come out of the heat, brush yourself off and fly on, I know.
Take care and I hope all your tomorrows are wonderful.
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i feel exact same as discounted girl who said things so perfect.i also know phoenix is not sad but only strong and doing what her wise heart tell her is the best.she is very clear on intents and reasons.i will miss her too but i know she is at the very good place for herself too.
Phoenix fly high! :D
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I haven't posted much, so only know you from what I've read, but I will miss you (especially since I think I'm at a place of "sharing" now, and could benefit from your experience, knowledge, and humor).
I wish you the best, and selfishly hope there may be a time when you'll visit here again - but you have to follow your head and heart, and I understand that.
I do think you'll fly like a Phoenix, not only fly, but SOAR!
Live your life, listen to your heart, and be good to yourself.
bobbie
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Phoenix,
I have replied to your PM & hope you receive it... I just registered recently, and haven't sent a PM at this board before..
The "sent" and "outbox" folders seem to be working opposite... :? It is storing what I sent in "outbox" (which usually holds mail waiting to be sent), and the "sent" folder is blank/empty...
That is why I'm writing here to let you know...
BT