Voicelessness and Emotional Survival Message Board
Voicelessness and Emotional Survival => Voicelessness and Emotional Survival Message Board => Topic started by: spyralle on September 17, 2008, 08:20:13 AM
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Hey everyone,
just wanted to tell you that I took myself off to France to try and shake off the desperation. I have been staying in a retreat and just participating in a creative writing course.. I am not recovered by any means but I feel calmer in myself.. I am desperately hurt at what happened but now I am determined to make it through as I want to be in a place to be of some use to other people like us. I'm going home today and my flat is in chaos but I guess I just need to tidy it up and move on... he tried to contact me once while I was away by msn. I ignored him. i am still devastated that he did what he did. I still have some of his stuff but for now I just can't face it.. The ugly stuff is still there and I have developed this awful habit of touching my face which even feels ugly.. I will get over this eventually I just wanted to say that out loud...
Spyrale xxxxxxx
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Spy,
You were very smart to get away. I think you should stay away until you are strong enough to go home and throw out his stuff and not ever want any contact again. Wishing you love and power.
Beth
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Way to go Spyralle!!!! You are doing such important work in taking care of yourself. I am so glad for you. I know it is hard. I hear it in your words but I also see that you are doing good things for yourself and that you are seeing things the way they are - and grieving - the grieving is so painful, I know.