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Voicelessness and Emotional Survival => Voicelessness and Emotional Survival Message Board => Topic started by: Izzy_*now* on April 17, 2009, 03:27:32 AM
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I just got up, because of pain. (12.20 am)Today was rough, as an O.T and reg taxi took me to Dr., where one worrisome incision was "bled out'....OH MY! Did I put Yarrow throught his paces! Said he did good finding the thyroid nodule my very first visit in '98 but all he's done since is "feed my drug habit" now this and he had to wipe down my chair, the floor *none on him* and bandage. (Linda on the desk appeared incompetent to help, and I need daily dressing changes.) He went along with me and wasn't offended. Wheelchair taxi came for return trip and Mary Jo went for the antibiotics.
Too much exercise for this stage!
Then by bedtime his bandage was leaking, so I took the crotch out of a Tena waterproofs and taped it over with masking tape. Will see someone tomorrw. Mary Jo has to set it up
OHhhhhhhhhh the fun!
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My Deer Izzy-
Tough but pretty creature- it's so hard to be alone in the wee hours, in pain. What presence of mind to fashion an effective bandage for yourself! I have no idea what bleeding out an incision entails- is it done to prevent infection? And what in heaven's name is a thyroid nodule?????
Hope you have plenty of absorbing reading and videos ( or Hulu, etc) and good food and drink. Is the person that you are seeing tomorrow coming to you or do you have to go out again?
Take your medications and get all the REM sleep that you can.
Take Care of My Darling Izzy,
C. ( The Incessant Nag)
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Izz.... just catching up on your post.
So you had an infection and start antibiotics today?
Hopefully the girl can get you the probiotics to go with. You have to keep the yogurt ones cold so must think through timing.... .take about 30 minutes after antibiotic twice day I'm assuming?
That means you need it handy..... hopefully not making a trip to fridge just for that. You'll figure it out, you always do.
Sorry to hear about the dr. visit.... sounded dreadful for you.
::sending healing vibes for incisions, femur and hip::
And also for your spirit, Izzy dear.
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Hiya Mo2
Hiya changing
A thyroid nodule was a nodule on my thryoid which symptoms *main* unexplained weight loss, steady anxious feeling, etc. to trembling hands which I hadn't noticed. I was euthyroid (neither hyper- or hypo-) so needed no hormone replacement therapy but have a blood test every year.
On a guess, Dr. Y suggested that a bleeder was sewn up inside, loose, and continued to bleed under the skin The lump became bigger and angrier. He cut 1cm of the incision and drained all that was in there.
He gave me antibiotics, just in case, and will report if there is an infection, and it might require a different medication.
More ingenuity about what to wear : I finally was brilliant :idea: :idea: :idea: I have a 'fullish' skirt that buttons from waist to knee hemline. I had my Care lady try it on and switch the opening to the left leg. Worked perfectly, and I did take a lap robe.
Thank you ladies for your kind words and input.
Love
Izzy
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A nurse has been and changing the dressing. She thought I was very smart to use an incontinent pantie crotch.
She double padded with far larger than the doctor used.
The crotch looked rather drenched when she removed it and is having supplies sent here for whomever comes for the daily dressings.
Just keeping in touch, and no news fromm The Doctor, I expect is, "Don't change procedure!"
Izzy
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Oh sorry, Izz.
If it's blood, from loose bleeder, that's doing the drenching..... will it be stopping, on it's own, soon?
It's been over 2 weeks, for Pete's sake.
Seems the bleeding should be done.
Sorry for shouting "Where's Izzy?" on the other thread.
I didn't notice the update till too late...... just checking in: )
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Hi Mo2
I thought I heard Dr. use term 'bleeder' but whatever, bleeding took place inside and there was fresh and clotted that came pouring out when he 'knicked the incision'.
I had been having "pains in my left ovary" area and wondered where that came into the picture, but then they disappeared....I don't know my insides well enough to say that there is a roadway from my outer thigh to my lower abdomen.
I am just up from not napping as supplies were coming from drugstore. I could have gone for a nap hours ago, but didn't know when he was coming. I prefer notice.
I feel the painish again in my 'left ovary area" Michelle is coming tomorrow. Surgery was Mar 29. (was hit Mar 27.)....I lay in Emerg for TWO days..... 3 weeks ago Sunday.
It's just one day/step at a time.
The President called and asked me if my reisgnation could be reconsidered. I said "No" and went on to say that a "Maybe" is too much like a "Yes" and "pressure".
I was injected with blood thinners in hospital, but not now. I have to depend 'on the experts', for the most part but now and again I can figure out something. Leg has 'changed' and every night I try to find the right setup with pillows......to sleep.
xx
Izzy
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Heavens, Izz.
It sounds exhausting just to get situated in bed.
As for the ovary pain...... it could be attached to the leg pain. A reflexologist might be helpful there.
Sorry you had to wait two days in emergency room before surgery.
That's the Canadian medical system.....
or your doc's idea?
No matter..... it's over now. I wish getting second and third opinions was easier than it probably is for you. I'd surely suggest them.
Sleep tight, Izz.
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hi Mo2
Yes, some nights I get into bed then I begin building my nest..... pillow here, smaller one there, folded towel here etc, than lie back -Ah great! 2 min later I can tell the pain is coming to stay, so I sit up and reconstruct the nest. Some nights it has taken over an hour ½.
I am exhausted. Last night I nailed it first try.
I don't know why the wait on surgery. I must have been a mess because I take diazepam every day and by the second day would be spazzing out. Perhaps there was a long discussion as to the best procedure since I was already in a 'chair. I might find out one day. Much of my confusion could have arisen from lack of diazepam.
My incision is well padded, not leaking, yet I see minor blood stains and don't know the origin. (I think I sat here longer than I thought, leaking into my foam cushion, with Dr's. bandage.) I might be squishing it out, but putting a towel there should a stain on bottom and seep through top. Top has stain but not bottom of towel, yet my bandage is clean. HUH?
Cushion to garbage later. I have another one and will get them switched tomorrow, hoping of course, that all is well enough to challenge fate with my last cushion.
My days are a mixture of naps and awake therefore sitting and lying down.
If I miss a day here and there on the board, it is just that it has been routine and will be back another day.
Love
Iz
[Edit in] After I went to bed I was thinking about my system not having the diazepam, then I remembered the uncontrollable shaking I went through while on the ground. Wow! was I scared! My arms were flailing wildly , shoulders shaking and I couldn't, or could scarcely, speak to say I couldn't stop shaking. No one seemed particularly concerned. Then I'd calm and thought the worst was over but in all, there, in the ambulance and in Emergency I counted a total of 12 episodes (if I can be trusted to count under those circumstances)
So maybe my PTSD shook out of me then.
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Darn. Another all-nighter and ache all over from nest building that failed miserably
I was reading up on Broken Femur, am not the only one in pain, but EIGHT months?...at least no one will see me limp!
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Hello DeerIzz-
The nest building is so troublesome, but in your present confinement so important.And your cushion...perhaps you can order a new one on the driver's dime, as your injury was the cause of ruining the old one.
The pain in the ovary area, the diazepam situation...Do you have a G.P. that knows you and your body, that you can contact regarding this? In my experience, surgeons etc dealing with traumatic injuries tend to minimize these other sorts of things, even though they may ultimatelyhave a great impact on one's healing and overall well-being.
Sounds like you are getting great care from the home health workers. Hopefully the pain meds will take the edge off and your pain levels will calm down soon.
Hope you get some sleep- do you have books and videos, etc?
Love,
Changing
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Love and comfort, Izz, love and comfort...
Courage you already have.
(I wonder if you might want to tell the former boss that you simply can't think about it now, but you will contact him when you can. Seems a shame for you to force a decision about employment when you're crazed with pain and medicated. IMO.)
love to you,
Hops
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I answered you C, but I see it isn't here. I'm sorry.
hiya Hops.
In an email to a friend at work I stated in part
For 4 days no one knew?
Confidential re J.E, as his memory is much worse--Promise Promise!
When J heard the rumour he emailed me to answer and tell him the truth of what happened. Why would I lie?
Then he wanted to bring all the cash in to the hospital for me to prepare the deposit. If I have to turn in 80 of my dollars, wouldn't the Hospital seize SLR's money too?
I gave him my keys to bring another w'chair from home, collapsible. I would need one to be released. He reported that it wasn't collapsible. I explained procedure, take pillow/cushion off, hit the bottom of the seat with a tough rap and voila. Again! It is not collapsible and he called in G. (with his toolbox) and N., so I already know how my apt was left for them all to see---a nightie, soaking in the sink, my computer on, unmade bed and the look of scorn (I'd never do that!) when J mentioned it and he and wife both said that now they knew how to leave their place when they go away. All of that was unnecessary.
Mar 27 the surgery Mar 29. Don't know where I was in between. I awoke to still excruciating pain, now with a rod down the centre of my femur and 3 incisions where pins/nails/spikes were inserted to hold the rod from turning. I 'hallucinated' on top of what I really knew and day was day but NIGHT was a DAY too, so when I was there 1 week in real time, in my time I had been there 2 weeks and I led parallel lives. I was very concerned about the intention of killing me in my Night/day life and I needed to talk, but only J. came so I asked him if he would 'believe' what I was telling him so that I could talk about it. Well, he just thought I was nuts! I wrote him a note to try to explain. He was no better afterward and was shocked that I knew in advance that we all were going to a sex, drug and booze party. When I came home, I found the note unopened, hidden in a folder on my desk.
J.'s bookkeeper was in a serious crash and he had to 'work'. Izzy however was lounging around pain free with time on her hands.[/font]
If someone cannot understand, then off with his head. He really thought I was ready for the loony bin and said so.
I see him teeteriong on the edge of dementia and don't want to see it come to fruition.
Love
Izzy
oh this bears posting too:
That about covers the main stuff, but J. and wife left on a trip and I came home by wheelchair taxi, As I awaited, my 2 roommates were preparing to move on as well, both men. One was 84, hip surgery and on his way to Dementia. The other was 78, hip replacement, and was on his way to Rehab. The latter told me what he went through, not knowing where he was, not asking, just keeping quiet, because then the Chinese couldn't find him to assassinate him.
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E gads, Izz.
No wonder you want to cut ties at work.
Hope you have an easier time nesting this evening.
I'm thinking of you.
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Yozer!...Oh Iz, oh....
I am thinking of you also Iz.
(((IZ)))
Love
Deb
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Ya eh?
After I said "I resign", he pouted out that he took on the position of Treasurer only because I was doing the work. (Therefore it is my fault he cannot be Treasurer anymore.)
Another gal has stepped in and is learning from the other Treasurer. There is no indispensable man.
I received last month's Approved Minutes for the Website, formatted and uploaded. All web work comes in by email!! No loose cars running amok!
Have found a better nesting position, but am still up a coupl;e of times in the night and stay up for 2 hours.
My incision is still seeping. I'm running out of towels and sheets (older ones) so Michele is going to talk to my doctor about how she thinks there is something inside, under the incision and will be coming twice a day. I felt it too,,,,,,,Flying saucer for sure!
Love
Iz
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OK, Izz.
Trying to understand here.
Are you saying it feels like a flying saucer shaped object lodged under your skin?
That would explain the bleeding and trouble, wouldn't it?
I'm so sorry, thank goodness have an advocate helping you out.
::sending prayers and healing thoughts your way::
It's got to get better soon, ((Izz))
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Yep
Seems to be like a fried egg, 2 circles and the middle one higher than the outside
OMG
8:08 and no one is working yet!
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Iz,
I'm sitting here reading your posts and thinking what a blessing it is that you have your good sense and that you can communicate (with your extra measure of good sense) with your care assistants. To boot it sounds like you have really sincere, attentive assistants. That too is a blessing.
Thinking of you with lots of affection...
tt
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When I first read that you felt like rod sticking out of your leg.... I thought your leg was broken again :shock:
Let us know whats up...... we care and we're concerned, Izz.
Mo2
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Nurse said maybe the rod broke
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Oh Iz.
I so wish I was there to say something to make your medical team "jump to" and get you the attention and help you need. This just doesn't sound good at all. Did they do an x-ray? An "educated guess" isn't going to be enough in this situation!!
My fingers are crossed that you get the attention you deserve and need - and quickly!!
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Ummmm..... it seems highly unlikely that a metal rod would break if you didn't get hit by another car.... unless it's your bone that broke apart and the rod slipped free?
How could either happen and the dr. not notice as he squeezed blood out of your incision area?
And...... when are you going back? (sorry, didn't mean to question you)
I'd seriously suggest making the appt with different doc, Izz.
This is beginning to sound like you've slipped between the cracks.
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I have three incisions, this one has two.
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I hate to say it, Izz dear...
but I think you need to go to the emergency room and MAKE SOMEBODY LOOK AT THAT BULGE.
Please do, call the ambulance, make them be gentle, report back...
much love to you,
Hops
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You need an advocate with you, Izz.
I'm glad your care gal is meeting you in the morning.
Give her directions and stress how much pain you're in.
Your usual demeanor is to be stoic.
I know that you must be in terrible pain, otherwise we wouldn't be hearing anything about it.
(((()))) I'm so sorry you have to wait so long to see the doc.