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« Last post by Meh on April 16, 2026, 12:17:17 PM »
Well I think I might mainly be tired from period and having to take a bus etc.
I'm not sure I have anything to say. When I made the appointment I felt focused on something. During the appointment I feel like I just retreated into my headspace and anyhow it was only a first appointment. At least it was something.
Feels like I've been slightly incoherent all day. Friend is hospitalized for blood clots was texting them because they couldn't sleep was just trying to keep them some kind of company. Maybe just tired is part of the mental fog jumble.
Reminding myself that I'm 1000% responsible for me and I'm 1000% responsible for my junk. Nothing magic is going to happen. You know there is a pathetic part of me that does just wish a therapist could fix my life, literally rewrite the past, the present the future and stick it in a snowglobe that flurries ranunculus petals.
I don't have to agree with the therapist about everything. I do find that economic reality is a pressure and it impacts everybody differently. The attachment stuff is a real issue for me yes & I mostly haven't had a chance to deal with it and I just avoid it. I have some other thought brb.
Blank. I'm too tired to write some judgemental thing on here. I'm actually too tired to spin my wheels in complaint.
Had wanted to write something just about how much financial stress impacts people it's a different issue and I don't want the therapy appointments to be about that because it's just a different type of personal problem. But even being able to do these appointments with the therapist it's actually only I have time because I'm in between jobs and my current insurance is paying for it.
My plan for the day is just to do an errand this morning - take a shower before or after - read a book for 20 minutes beforehand maybe - schlep my bag and barely working laptop to a cafe for afternoon got several things to actually work on. The less I do the more the stuff piles up needs to be done. I would feel better if I would get some stuff done. okay.
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