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« Last post by lighter on June 08, 2025, 10:46:01 AM »
I woke up, made coffee, walked the pug and experienced such clarity this morning.
The shift to immersion in nature, pug, stretching and walking....
vs
Readying an FU deployment, should one of my, very human, neighbors is inappropriate, again.
I ticked through morning ablution, sans auto-armoring up, preparing mentally, making sure I had something....a pen/phone in my hand.....and just enjoyed the rain soaked moss, hydrangeas and cool morning.
That's the switch ... th stay grounded in the food things, while gliding over the stupid and harmful things, bc they win if I'm stuck thinking about them.
And I noticed what's in those spaces, instead.
"Sitting in non judgemental awareness" is the shift? Is part of the shift? Feels like the thing, that's really 100K small choices in a day, firming and making up new defaults.
But one must notice first.
Yesterday was completely angst free walking,c working, covering over massive pile of dog mess, Neighbor's leaf pile, mdm several smaller piles on the trails and other lead pile.....zero emotional charge to it. New. A relief.
The real challenge will be noticing charge/lack of charge when BGP snarfs the top off a leaf look gob of poop, or I slide through another pile, esp in my yard.
::breathing::.
I wonder if this is where the saying ..
"Don't sweat the small shite," came from?
Someone identifying an old reactivity default overlaying their present....and refusing to suffer twice about it.
Bc that's how it feels, to feel it, and put it down .. no tapping on the shoulder, again and again. Just, have it, and notice it dissipate and quiet. Leave neutral space, rather than continue filling space with resentment, frustration and anger.
And there's justified anger when people leave dog mess in public places/private yards, etc. But it shouldn't be in a day, or pop up, like a demented jack-in-the-box, unbidden, throughout a person's daily life, IME.
Nobody needs that.
And in that open space, I seek out more joy with my 3 girls. More singing, dancing, cooking, talking, laughing and bouncing logistics around.......checking in.
For a bit, it was overwhelming to think about ....but it's rolled forward, smoothed out and taken shape ......
girly girls ...
Renovation....
Readying lake for weddings ..
Upcoming family visit and travel for our if State wedding in 2 months.
I'm enjoying discussions with cousins over decorations and rustic serving pieces, vases, cupcake and nut vessels.
Enjoying 90% research, 10% execution on my considerations.
I notice editing my house didn't make the list. Hmmmm.🫣
Lighter
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