I am a dreamer. I mean, I really have dreams.
I dreamed I was helping a bride choose her wedding accessories on Tuesday night. Wednesday night
I dreamed something about a funeral??
Weddings=new beginnings
Funerals= something that is dead in your life?
For a long time when I first met my xN, I would dream about snakes(snakes symbolizes the enemy)? I wasn't sure the dream was about him, because their was another person in my life that I had questions about.
The dream that i had about a funeral this week was not the first time I have dreamed of a funeral. I just don't know if I was involved with the N at the time. I can't recall now what was going on in my life?
I can tell you right now I am heartbroken from the N. Him abandonment of me, has broken my heart. I don't know if I will ever truly get over it, even with time. The thoughts of him with someone else makes me sick to my stomach. I isn't the 1st time he has thrown me out, but it is the 1st time he
has said such horrible horrible things to me.
I don't have a clue why God allowed him in my life? What I am to learn? When he came to me, I
thought God had sent him? I am tired. Tired of the messes of life. How much longer??
My faith is shaky right now. I feel like throwing in the towel of it all. Even when I try to do it God's way, I get nothing but disappointed... Where is my "abundant life on this earth?" When do I get the desires of my heart? when when when... I don't have a tomorrow to look forward to....
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