Hops:
I misunderstood the silencio thing... .thought it was the T who liked it. Sorry.
I do think that's cute, but only between you and M. In mixed company, I doubt he'll share that smile in the same way, when he's struggling, IMO.
About your "snotty" look. I've been paying attention to my facial expressions late, with one person in particular, and I have a flash of emotion take over my expression that I was completely surprised by.
Don't get defensive. Try to pay attention to your expression, as a matter of curiosity, and see what you catch. Sometimes our faced DO things we're not aware of, IME. I think I'd want to provide clarity, certainly AND at the same time I think it sucks that women are judged "bitchy" every time we have a less than happy emotion cross our faces. During the trials I was in trouble for it all
the
time. Even with my own team of advocates. My frustration at the injustice. At the crazy made up stories. At my distress, coming out of my nervous system but having to PERFORM in public all the time, with everyone judging me. I just honestly had to be made aware of what my face and demeanor WAS so I could stop sabotaging myself in that way. I find men and women punish us for looking generally bitchy, as defined in this culture. It can be fear, distress, frustration, ongoing abuse and voicelessness and it's judged the same way, which is FRUSTRATING too, IME.
I love that M bought into the concept of code word. I think that's wise, and smart, and necessary. Good on'ya and T to gain his compliance. That's half the battle, I think. Staying engaged, and drive to learn is the next part.
Lighter