Amber:
As I'm giving advice to one of my dd's regarding a boy, I want to give you advice to NOT give your dd advice about boys.
::uncrossing super hypocritical eyes::.
The truth is, part of my emotional response is what my girls went through in early childhood, bc of me and my relationship with their father.
I can't change that now. I can model taking care of my own business and let the girls know I trust them to handle theirs.
I can't control or moderate their feelings, actions or words.... no matter how hard I want to, feel I have to, feel responsible.... I just can't. Sometimes I really get that, Amber. Other times, I get mixed up, and turns around... confused about it, what I can and can't do.... what is my business and what is theirs.
Figuring out what is mine and what is theirs helps simplify the answer to questions I ask myself for clarity.....
Is there anything I can be doing in this moment?
That really brings me back to my center. It's helpful.
You can't tell Hol her plan to have a baby with a chucklehead on your property isn't a good plan. What you CAN do is tell her you trust her to make decisions she can live with, bc she's the one who'll be living with them. You don't have to live with her decisions. She does. She should be making here own decisions for that reason. I'd say that to her flat out, and I'd say it with zero emotion. Eeeek. Sorry. Just giving you my POV right now. Not telling you what you must do, of course. I guess I'm trying to say..... as long as Hol feels you're involved.... the decisions are somewhat about YOU..... and she's not really focusing on what's hers, which is S, and what her life would be like if she had a baby with him. That's something she'll see more clearly if you've stepped OUT of it, completely, IME. The full weight of being on her own, and being responsible for her decisions will then carry the full weight, IME. You won't give her the mistaken impression this is YOUR business and you'll be there to solve and carry the problems with her.
You can set boundaries around S touching your tools, or not. How he lives in your space IS your business.
You can require S hunt all the lost tools, help you care for them and return them where he won't be allowed to touch them again. Hol can't FIX that one. She can't cover it up. She can will you to keep your mouth shut, and allow things to get worse.... or not.
From where I sit.... that seems perfectly logical to me around the tools, particularly bc Hol and S are living under your roof right now.
There have to be limits you set for your life.
Not for theirs.
For yours and Buck's. Modeling that for Hol is a good thing, IME.
I have a habit of looking down the road and Hol sharing a baby with chucklehead wouldn't simplify any of the problems you guys struggle with now, IME. It would make matters more complicated, more unsteady and more difficult to process and deal with.
Choices.
Heck, S might decide he's not happy living with an empowered woman's boundaries fully in place, with consequences swiftly delivered, sans discussion. It's my hope all our daughters will learn how to do this for themselves, and to feel entitled to set and hold those boundaries.
I had an epiphany last week.... I've done my children a disservice by cushioning their path and shielding them as I have...... and you know what? I know I was doing the best I could at that time. I'm OK with it, and I forgive myself.
I know better now, and I'll try to do better now, bc of that awareness.
All I can do is model taking care of my own business. Give them their business to deal with and wish them well...... let them know I trust them to handle it and I will tell you..... I have a belly full of this, close up, right now, btw.
It comes down to figuring out what is mine, putting my blanket statements in place, then repeating them as needed so as not to get dragged into things that are muddled and not mine. OH SO SIMPLE once I SEE what's mine.
So as not to let the young people feel they have a say in my business, how I feel and what my boundaries are or how I'll enforce them, bc that's exactly what I'm doing right now.
Taking control back. Feeling entitled and obligated to do so.
::nodding::.
Yes, there's some discomfort, but I can't control that. I don't want to control it, truth be told. It's growth and growth is painful, IME.
Lighter