dearest moon,
re:"detachment"
as always, your message filled me with insight and radiance . . .
just like the actual moon, reflecting the sun's radiance
as a metaphor in the sky for how we obtain light
(it used to be that almost all my poems would reference
the moon)
the light doesn't come from us, but we reflect it
and in such a way, the darkest night is filled with silvery light.
didn't we all grow up hoping to learn how to avoid pain?
initially we thought, we will become wise enough, rich enough, powerful enough,
to be the masters of our fate, that our suffering will end . . .
but we didn't see how sometimes we create suffering for ourselves
or how our suffering and pain are necessary parts of the complete package . . .
right along with joy and love and celebration
i am not trying to make excuses for bad behavior but as Jesus said . .
"let he who is without sin, cast the first stone . . . "
sometimes, the way to receive more
is to want less
your father and my son will see the day when they will need what we offered . . .
they will realize their mistake . . .(forgiveness is part of the package, too)
i will wait for that day. but i won't humilate myself by
going where i am not wanted . . . where i receive nothing but mistreatment
if i were called upon
I would be ready to help, forgive, forbear,resume . . .
but my message to the N's in my life is . . .
I AM NOT A VICTIM
(I am the one who decides this)
I would rather do things for and with people who reciprocate and respond
instead of humilating, criticizing and deriding me
I hope that you are at rest Moon, someday your father will know
what he missed, you have gone far and away beyond the call of duty
and you deserve all the light you can gather
enjoy! thank you for the wonderful message, have a great holiday
love, sheela------
