Lost My Job and Doubting Myself

[BonesMS]

BTW, I'm still waiting to hear back from Voc. Rehab. after I contacted them again.

Bones

[Hopalong]

Hi Bones,
Can you keep contacting them, and keep a notebook where you record the date and time of each contact and who you spoke to?

After a while, seems to me that if you've documented it all, you might have a case for some Legal Aid help.

xo
Hops

[BonesMS]

Thanks, Hops!

I have my contacts via e-mail and have been keeping a file of them.

Bones

[Hopalong]

Hey Bones, in response to your latest post on Members Stories:
 
There's gotta be. Near Hopkins, U. of Md.? Does Shephard Pratt do anything outpatient? THOSE folks are good. I had a friend in there many years ago and found it a wonderful place.

What about putting a notice in all of the campus newspapers for all of those places saying what you just said:

In search of a therapist with solid experience dealing with the traumatized adult children of narcissistic rageaholic mothers.

Throw a little ad out there everywhere you can, even at women's shelters, because a cheap or even free domestic abuse support group would have all SORTS of wisdom on PTSD and all that you've been through. Find a spot for your healing, hunt it down and find it and occupy it because you deserve to.

((((((((((((((((Bones))))))))))))) big tender hug,

Hps

[BonesMS]

Thanks, Hops.

Hopkins is in Baltimore and nowhere NEAR where I live.  I've contacted the University of Maryland previously but that didn't pan out.  Shepard Pratt is also in Baltimore and nowhere near where I am.  I'll keep looking.

Bones

[BonesMS]

What also complicates things is fighting the "old tapes" in my head!

I remember, years ago, when I lost a job.  The responses I got from NWomb-Donor was:  (1) TOTAL blame, (2) Name-calling, i.e. "retard", "stupid", "mentally ill", and (3) ANNOUNCING that the only thing I was qualified for was to become a WHORE!  (Sarcastically) Thanks for being SO-O-O-O supportive!   

Bones

[Ami]

What also complicates things is fighting the "old tapes" in my head!

I remember, years ago, when I lost a job.  The responses I got from NWomb-Donor was:  (1) TOTAL blame, (2) Name-calling, i.e. "retard", "stupid", "mentally ill", and (3) ANNOUNCING that the only thing I was qualified for was to become a WHORE!  (Sarcastically) Thanks for being SO-O-O-O supportive!   

Bones

Did she really say that Bones?            Ami

[BonesMS]

What also complicates things is fighting the "old tapes" in my head!

I remember, years ago, when I lost a job.  The responses I got from NWomb-Donor was:  (1) TOTAL blame, (2) Name-calling, i.e. "retard", "stupid", "mentally ill", and (3) ANNOUNCING that the only thing I was qualified for was to become a WHORE!  (Sarcastically) Thanks for being SO-O-O-O supportive!   

Bones

Did she really say that Bones?            Ami

YES!  She even has the remaining NFOO still convinced that I'm the Family Whore.  One NCousin recently called me to proposition me and I set him straight QUICK!!!!

Bones

[Ami]

What also complicates things is fighting the "old tapes" in my head!

I remember, years ago, when I lost a job.  The responses I got from NWomb-Donor was:  (1) TOTAL blame, (2) Name-calling, i.e. "retard", "stupid", "mentally ill", and (3) ANNOUNCING that the only thing I was qualified for was to become a WHORE!  (Sarcastically) Thanks for being SO-O-O-O supportive!   

Bones

Did she really say that Bones?            Ami

YES!  She even has the remaining NFOO still convinced that I'm the Family Whore.  One NCousin recently called me to proposition me and I set him straight QUICK!!!!

Bones

OH God, Bones! There are very few people I could say are WORSE than my M but yours take the cake. You win!!        Ami

[BonesMS]

What also complicates things is fighting the "old tapes" in my head!

I remember, years ago, when I lost a job.  The responses I got from NWomb-Donor was:  (1) TOTAL blame, (2) Name-calling, i.e. "retard", "stupid", "mentally ill", and (3) ANNOUNCING that the only thing I was qualified for was to become a WHORE!  (Sarcastically) Thanks for being SO-O-O-O supportive!   

Bones

Did she really say that Bones?            Ami

YES!  She even has the remaining NFOO still convinced that I'm the Family Whore.  One NCousin recently called me to proposition me and I set him straight QUICK!!!!

Bones

OH God, Bones! There are very few people I could say are WORSE than my M but yours take the cake. You win!!        Ami

NWomb-Donor was a LUNATIC SICKO!!!!!!

Bones

[Ami]

You seem very sane having come from that. I think you get a lot of credit and kudos for that!                 Ami

[BonesMS]

Thanks, Ami.

Bones

[BonesMS]

I'm still waiting to hear from the other program that Voc. Rehab referred me to.

Bones

[Hopalong]

Grrrrr.

Waiting with you.

Hops

[BonesMS]

Thanks, Hops!

Bones