Just about ready to tie a tight knot in this year and set it at the curb for trash day. I am more than ready.
I think I've finally come back up through all the "new" this year; all the checking perception to emotional reality; all the odd echoes of the past that needed a final addressing; or putting in their proper place in the chronology. And all the complex things going on around what I intended to be a quiet, peaceful retreat. Where I could unfurl my wings. I am still fighting for the right to have my own opinions and judgements about things; seems everyone is selling snake oil these days - just didn't expect it from a "kid" that's middle-aged now.
There are new boundaries, yes. And there will even be conditions. I'm not presenting those yet. It means I'll be accused of more things. But honestly, it's my name on the bottom line and that's the way it has to be.
Buck is administering IV antibiotics at home; a nurse is showing up with it, I believe. He's already had to change it, because it's causing side effects. Mostly fever, but that could also be the action of the antibiotic fighting the infection. It's a 6 weeks course too, not your average 10 days. He can't abide yogurt, so I suggested he start probiotics. I went kinda quiet on him for a few days; he came looking. LOL. Concerned.
He had a good Christmas after all.
