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Meh:
I feel like I hijacked the Anything thread. I just want a place to deposit randomness. So i thought perhaps I would make my own anything Idk

Today is my Friday :) It feels kinda bad because after working everyday of a Holiday weekend I have a lot of undone work left over that is pending. I prefer feeling like its all finished before I go.

Watching Sleepy Hollow with Johnny Depp

Meh:
Caught my co-worker pawning her work off on me for no reason today, red handed, replied to her and CC my manager in on it. She took her work back. She sent it to me saying there was nothing she could do, however due to her prior notes it was clear she WAS the person who needs to do it and THERE IS something she could do.  :lol: She slipped up and I caught her. Since it was in writing/email it was totally not debatable.

Meh:
Watching recorded comedy shows with female comedians. My mother texted me 30 mins ago to tell me that my ancient grandmother has fallen again and fractured her spine in multiple locations. Sort of surprised that she is even walking unsupervised but I didn't ask that question as I am trying to stop myself from asking dumb questions. Also I asked myself if I care and I decided that I don't care. I thought about asking my mother how she is going to feel when my grandmother is dead. I have no idea why I would even ask that question, I think it might be my feeble way of of trying to torment her which is probably pointless. Then I thought about if I would go to the funeral, the upside is that my father would not be there. The first think I thing about is "how awkward might this be". Shrug.

I hate seeing my Aunt's family post all their family photos on face book. I want to de-friend them on facebook. I dont even Fing use facebook really. I think I may have figured out how to hide my profile from everybody which is the next closest thing to closing the account. The only reason I even had a facebook account was to spy on some guy that I went on a road trip with many years ago. And then recently it was just a way to keep in touch with my nephews which I have found is just Fing pointless and dumb.

:)

Meh:
Spent my entire weekend over indulging on a tv series via Netflix.

Meh:
Had a panic attack at work today and left early :(  I think this is the second or third time I have left work early due to having a panic attack. I just tell them that I am not feeling well but I don't really want to explain it to them what is going on because I am afraid they will think I am crazy and there are about 8 supervisors there only one of them would I really feel okay telling her the why/how of it. I feel so out of control and irrational when I have panic attacks. Its probably been about 3 or 4 months since the last time this happened. I get all cringey and stressed out thinking about how to explain it. Maybe I need to just be more like "let go and let god" about it. I take medications for asthma and allergies which seem to make the feeling worse as the asthma medication is a stimulant and the allergy pills seem to exaggerate that dry can't swallow cotton mouth sensation. It usually starts out I am feeling like I am having asthma and/or allergies and then it snowballs and then I am stuck at work and feel uncomfortable trying to talk to customers while it is happening.

I'm not sure how to politely tell my co-workers that need to know the reason which is only like 1-2 people though there are often about 5 people that the info circulates through plus whoever is standing by that overhears everything in the office because nothing is private nor confidential in this office. See I feel rather embarrassed. Shrug.

I very well can't tell my manager that occasionally I simply feel like I am going to choke to death. It sounds quite odd.

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