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Dr. Richard Grossman:
Hi Hops,
I am so sorry to hear the news. Knowing your skills/talents from your “work” on this Board, I’m sure you’ll find a new job soon. But I know how scary it is. Thinking of you,
Richard
Hopalong:
Thank you, Lighter. It feels unfortunately familiar--not the people, but the sense of fear and dislocation.
Not toxic like the old job (it was only 3-4 months), but just as though someone was playing with her business,
and got tired of the effort. And ran out of $$ and hadn't been completely upfront about how precarious the whole
enterprise was. Considering what I observed and what her daughter would describe over these few months, and all
that she was focused on that had no relation to work, I think it's a marvel that she isn't in worse shape
than she is. But all was cordial.
And thank you, Doc G. At near-67 I don't feel "sure" or expect "soon" but I'm glad you feel that way!
I will rally, and faster. And if I absolutely have to, I can go on SS and scrape by. I'm trying my hardest
not to do that until 70, because it makes a significant difference in the amount for life if you can hold out.
But it may be necessary and so be it if so.
I guess my next work-related thread will have to be NOT-NEW Job Stories! (Hope it really doesn't wind up
plural, but who knows).
Hugs
Hops
Hopalong:
And today was sunny and lovely and this is also what happened:
--last night a good friend brought over burritos
--this board was here to vent to, as always (bless Doc G and all of you!)
--today I had my mediation class with close friends
--another called and is taking me to dinner tonight
--a neighbor is taking me to a movie after that
--friends not here have emailed
--My yard got cleaned up and things trimmed and mulched
--the friend who's so $mart about finance, is coaching me through my options Monday
(Of course I only GET all that support because I howl and reach out and squawk when
I need it, and have built my community of support so painstakingly. This is when the
group experience truly pays off--patiently joining and listening and sitting and sharing
year over year means even with No Family, you can wind up with a Big Phamily.)
The meditation class (watching a Great Courses DVD series)
was ALL about impermanence, and so well taught by a brilliant
and humorous professor. And in my friend's gorgeous home where
I always feel welcome and relaxed.
I don't really have to freak out about this. I don't think I'm going to.
One step at a time, job-apps can start Monday.
Thank you, all of you, for wading through so many of my stories.
love,
Hops
Hopalong:
I dunno.
I feel a bit as though my "high" of happiness yesterday was a little manic.
Or even narcissistic because it was CLEARLY because I was getting love and attention.
Something about it felt...I dunno.
Maybe I'm just steeling myself for pain to come, now that the shock is wearing off.
Feel mixed up again.
Hops
Twoapenny:
Hops I am completely at a loss for words. I'm shocked/astonished/horrified that what seemed like such a good and doable thing has turned out not to be (and so suddenly as well - I know it wasn't perfect but it sounded like it would have been tolerable).
I completely understand the 'manic' leap to action that happens after a shock like that. It's how I react always to disturbing or difficult situations - I go into sort of mega resourceful "I can cope" mode - which does then wear off as reality sets in and the dust starts to settle. I always assume with me it's the adrenalin kicking in - fight or flight, and it makes us leap into action. I am really glad that you have got that Phamily around you, though, and that they did all jump in to help. I don't think there's anything narcissistic about love and attention feeling good - it always feels good and times like this are when good, supportive people really come into their own. I'm glad they were there for you, real 3D gooduns, doing good things.
But I am really sorry things have turned out this way and it makes me wonder why 'bad things happen to good people'. If anyone deserved a break with this it was you and I'm really sorry it's not turned out like that. I really hope it means there's something better coming up but I know only too well how hard it is to cope with the not knowing and the effort it takes to start slogging through the same process all over again.
I've absolutely no practical or useful advice for you but can only say I am rooting for you and really, really hope something else comes up again soon, and I hope you can keep reaching out to the Phamily when you need/want to - and on here, of course.
Thinking of you and keeping everything crossed,
Love Tup xx
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