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Hopalong:
SO proud of you, Miz G!

And do these education funds include living expenses?

This ain't liberal arts, hopping from flower to flower. You are at an excellent point to retrain for a practical but interesting career. Is there anything in health care that appeals? If direct patient contact isn't exciting, maybe radiologic technician, or x-ray tech, ultrasound, etc. There are a lot of such jobs.

I may be waaaay off. You'll find out for yourself what types of things can attract your interest. Not necessarily your whole-self interest, but interest as in my brain isn't atrophying, I'm actually contributing something useful to people's lives, and I'm in a stimulating environment where I'll learn a lot not just from technology but also from people. Dunno why, but I can envision it. They need intelligence and competence, not politician charm.

And I'm not surprised they're starting to talk to you about 4-year colleges also. You are highly intelligent and it shows.

Keep that chin up in the air, keep on breathing in calm, and keep allowing for the possibility of not-perfect-but-good things (and good people) happening!

Hugs
Hops

Meh:
* My mind is overactive

* deleting the blah blah

* I sound manic to msyelf - I'm really not I'm just freaking out.

* This program is going to assign me a case manager and that worries me, maybe it shouldn't.

* The case managers are there to help? not confuse me or make it more complicated. I feel like I can't let them know how undecided I am. Maybe they will just see it as part of the process.

* It seems like I have more options than I know what to do with. BUT many programs also require pre-reqs that I might not have. Maybe if I wanted to do something bad enough I still might be able to justify some pre-reqs and get other funding for whatever is left over.

* Maybe I am blowing this up out of proportion, I wonder if my old university acceptance letters are useful as far as documentation goes. They aren't valid now but it does indicate I passed all the placement tests etc.

* Lots of people do this AND lots of people aren't able to. So I'm super freaking lucky at the moment.




Meh:
@ Hops the training plan once it is approved also extends my unemployment. The plan allows us to receive benefits and get full-time training. As long as my unemployment kicks in I should be able to pay rent and food and it's all legit.


Meh:
I'm just going to be obsessive compulsive for a while there's going to be some point in this eventually. The truth is I just want the education. I felt bad about quitting school. so all that's going through my head right now is oh my God I can go back to school I can go back.... honestly I'm not really even thinking about what kind of job I can get out of the education my mind is just not even there right now. that's exactly what the employment office is going to want to hear what kind of job is going to come out of this. Career. I just need to get all this crazy crap out of my head I'm sorry but I'm doing it right here. I can't talk to them like this I can't just tell them a stream of consciousness they will think I'm insane or maybe they won't, even they seemed to realize this is a BIG thing to take in. Hopefully over this weekend I can just kind of regroup myself and calm the F down.

Deleting some posts here that are rambling gibberish.

The education topic I get emotional about. I used to put a lot of pressure on myself about school. Pressure and then I didn't complete it.

* I'm breathing and listening to music and telling myself to be optimistic that somehow this puzzle WILL fit together.

* It's okay to get emotional/cry, I will just do that and let it go. It doesn't mean I can't do this. It's just emotionally charged for me personally. So I can have some kind of emotional breakdown every day it doesn't mean I'm mentally incompetent. I'm not in control of everything.

* I don't have to figure this all out in one day. I do have to move fast.

* This is going to be a series of ACTION steps. My next step is turning in more forms.

* I just wish one of my appointments could happen sooner.

* It doesn't matter what I do or what I do with it. I only have to present it as a stable in-demand career.

* I deserve this as much as anybody else.

* I can ask the case managers all the questions I want to.

** Oh my gosh I just remembered I have a few more credits from a different community college school I went to. I have to put that on my list of things to do. I will just call them see if they can auth release of info over phone. I don't remember my student ID.

I just read the pre reqs for the psy degree and I think I have them all, not sure if this really is the most useful degree.

* Does it need to be practical or is self-enrichment good enough. SIGH

* I might be like 2 or three classes away from entrance requirement to a Health Studies BA part of the school of nursing but not nursing. Probably not worth it for the pay off. But it's interesting and seems like there are a lot of electives.

I really didn't think it would be possible for me to ever afford school so I didn't bother to even think about it too much.

There are BAs in community college that have more pre-reqs than University level BAs. It's kinda weird. Even within one university different campuses seem to have different intensity levels as far as getting in.

It's sort of hard for me to answer like what is a degree going to do for me at this stage in life. Besides get me out of a mental rut.

more stars

* How important is prestige really. Schools have their ranking and I am close to one of the very highest ranked in my state but do I really want to go there. Should I make an advising appointment in general or am I wasting their time. I could still go even though I'm clueless. YES I will make an advising appointment there as well. WTF WHY NOT in bold so I don't forget
-- My proximity sort of justifies it as a LEGIT choice and therefore justifies the expense possibly.

Spelling and punctuation are not my thing and still somehow I've always done well in English courses there is a full online BA degree for English. I think I could get into this pretty easy and my current credits would transfer.
 
So far these might be options.
BA English Online and claim I want to be a technical writer if I can prove technical writing is in demand. I don't even know.
BA Health Studies In person for who knows what. Research program coordinator.
BA Psychology Online/In person for who knows what job would justify it.
I might be able to do a Marketing degree and justify it.
Any serious sciences are out of the question, I don't have the math brain sadly. 

In person cements a person down to a place, online is more flexible. I could live in the freaking countryside.

What if I'm just getting too dang excited. What if I am overestimating my abilities. Is it just a credential. It's hard to know how things will turn out...... and it's just past midnight and I am wearing down.

AND it's now past 2 AM. The math requirements could screw me up. Math is not my thing.
It's so weird the way some classes can be moved around to fill different area requirements. Tired. The closer I look at it I don't understand why the adviser told me I need classes that are not on the transfer sheet requirements. bonk bonk bonk

Having a moment of upset about deadlines, missing classes and simply not understanding it yet. It's not fun at the moment.

Twoapenny:
G, I'm very behind on your thread and haven't caught up on it all yet.  But wanted to say that it sounds great that you have some further education opportunities in front of you (albeit that there are choices to be made and it's hard knowing which way to go sometimes!  I get that a lot).  But I hope you're able to pick your way through it and that it all settles a bit.

For what it's worth, I went back into education on a whim.  I was in town one afternoon, shopping, and the local college were having an open day for mature students.  I wandered in for a look and came out signed up to three classes.  A year later I was walking in to a University for the first time.  To this day it was the happiest period of my life and I look back on my studying there with real fondness and longing.  The biggest thrill for me was the people - such a wide range of people, from so many different backgrounds, but such a diverse environment that you didn't have to spend time with anyone in particular (unlike work, where if you get stuck sitting next to Mrs Annie Moan A Lot there's no way out).  It was an amazing experience for me and I really hope this is an opportunity for you that comes to fruition without causing too much more stress along the way :)  Will catch up on the thread properly over the next couple of days :) xx xx

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