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Meh:
It's stress about multiple things Skep. I woke up feeling like barfing. Last night I was laying in bed thinking how badly I wish I had some old sleeping pills somewhere in my boxes of random stuff. Like just a couple nights of ambien. It happens sometimes stress overload. I did sleep but I felt like I didn't sleep. Due to such high stress I had no coffee yesterday. But I'm having some now just because. I will go buy some decaf today. A LOT of decaf I guess.

I wish there were over the counter sedatives. I know people would abuse it and that's why they don't but last night I was considering doing vodka shots. Didn't because it would just end up making me feel worse.
   ... Had so much trouble with rentals, shared wall and people bouncing basketballs inside on the weekends early in the morning. as a rebuttal to the basketball and general unreasonable noise i counter demonstrated by dropping a weight on the floor because anything dropped on the floor shakes the walls.. it's like having repetitive earthquakes... pounded the wall... got so ridiculously pissed off that I threw the weight on my own foot smashed my toe.. so I have a smashed toe a bruised fist and confirmation that people just can't f****** be considerate... Thank you lizard brain. I had to talk to them tell them the basketball inside was insane that it's an outdoor activity the hours of noise starting to extend later at night and earlier in the morning...it  Pissed them off..  they wanted to slam the door in my face, made a little pantomime motion like they were going to slam it in my face but didn't. Anywho had to talk to them about it. At least I made myself clear. Again reasonable... But not realistic.  ... It's comical in life how you can't say shit to nobody.
Going for a sandwich and library or something. Will regroup?? I hope. 

And now sitting on a hard chair in a library eating a banana for dinner instead of being in my mortgage priced apartment. Reading a novel not doing the stuff I came here to do.

Hopalong:
((((((G))))))))

Can you swim anywhere?
It's the best physical prep for sleep. Every time.
Just one swim on a free guest pass at a gym or a Y might break the cycle.

If not, I recommend Benadryl for sleep. Harmless. Gives you a little dry mouth but it's worth it.

Wishing you peaceful rest,
Hops

sKePTiKal:
Benedryl will make me sleep; but it also gives me a hangover the next morning that must be countered with mass quantities of caffiene.

Hopalong:
I know, it can do groggy.

But I also understand desperation for sleep. I can't get zolpidem covered any more through my insurance, and melatonin doesn't always do the job.

Benadryl in a pinch.

hugs
Hops

Meh:
Yeh, plenty of benedryl kept on hand here due to allergies. It's not strong enough for me though to help me sleep if I'm having some kinda weird anxiety/anger whatever issue. I've tried it. Anypoo thanks for the thought though. It's just been a weird week.

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