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lighter:
I'm overwhelmed, predictably, but moving forward.  At least I feel that today, despite worker with truck blowing me off.  The yard look s like a bit of a dump just now, and needs a day's worth of attention, or more.  Pines need cut down.  I have access to lovely palm trees through local botanist and conservationist artist historian I reconnected with.  He gave me and my girls and Auntie P a walking tour about 14 years ago.  Since then he's written books, and built an oden to the ocean and it's creatures in cement and found treasures.  I love his museum/home.  He has a garden he shares and gifts his knowledge.  Implanted oregano plants yesterday after digging good soil from interior of island.  The pine needles make the soil acidic and that's a bad thing for planting.

The cottage is in pretty good shape, and I have someone I believe can handle the Airbnb  business as boots on the ground.  She has a good reference I trust, so fingers crossed.

The yard and trees are vexing me....so so hot.  So buggy when wind dies down. 

I really liked the new T.  She's stripped all the thinking my way out of this box away, and addressed the problem amygdala from my lower brain. 

I've felt like the devil's chasing me for 15 years.  Just bc it got a bit better I felt like I could handle it, get over it, be strong enough to beat it back.  I really notice the thrum of distress in the background, running like a record in my nervous system.  I think this T is a piece of the puzzle.  I really connected with her.

The journey continues.

Lighter

Twoapenny:
Oh Lighter, being chased by the devil is a feeling I understand!  Are you back at the beach house now or is it home you're talking about?  I hope the yard gets cleared, wherever it is, and I'm glad it seems that you have found an AirBnB person to sort things out for you xx

Hopalong:
Lighter, that is such good news about the new T.

I'm sorry you still have to worry about the island cottage. Hope the B&B is soon up and running and will prove worth it. Is the cottage still up for sale, and the B&B just a placeholder plan?

Fingers crossed,
Hops

lighter:
It's the island yard, Tupp.  Much better now, but whew boy.....a roller coaster of emotions, and many surprises. 

Will update when I have my feet back home.  So many good and unexpected negative things to unpack.

Hops, I've been breathing into my blue dots, and pushing on walls, which is super helpful when feeling the urge to DO Do DO!

I'm profoundly grateful to have the new T's help.  She's really nice, and usually I talk and the Ts cry.  Not the case with this one.  She seemed to have answers, where most want to help, but feel helpless...... that's my take anyway.

Lighter

sKePTiKal:
I just couldn't deal with property that far away from "home" Lighter. It would give me whiplash, feeling like I was always at and working on the wrong place - and that the other one needed me. I don't know how you do it.

I guess there's some strong "meaning" or memories to the island?

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