im sorry about your bad day..I am having a bad day,bad week,and have been having a bad month!!
Im trying to figure out why im hanging on to something sick,and i have figured out,its making me sick.
I think its hard to let go of what we ""thought"' was real...and we come to see that all there is and has been is pain and distruption in our lives. I think ((this is my opinion) that we may even become addicted to the drama and the pain that comes daliy into our lives by N's.
I myself am still in an on-going realtonship with my N.I seem to get out,only to get back in. he has moments when he is kind,so of course i cling to these momets. (But the coldness,the deatchment,NO intimacy, whatsover,and the constant put downs,the manic times make it feel like im caught in a black hole)
I have known for some time he is an N I found years ago he fit the profile for a commitment Phobbic man,later as i read more and more,i realized he is a classic N. I am broke (he has taken/spent all the money I saved) I work three jobs now to take care of myself and family.(They are NOT his kids,thank God) He has never given me any help at all. I have moved three times and he never once lifted a hand to help me.But would call up screaming if i forgot to pay his phone bill!
I was raised by a N Mother(who i took cxare of,and treated as if she was a small child,when i was a child!)---and the list goes on and on.
I will pray for you. Bad days do turn into good days
Hang on. You have been with someone who is sick and they have made you sick.
He wanted you to feel and be his pain.You have been that.
Be kind to yourself. You gave ,he took This board has been wonderful. To read or to post.
take care
blue~